Lyrics
If you'd have told me in a year I'd be back here
If someone had predicted a year ago that I would return to this place
Feeling the same way like nothing had changed
Experiencing the same emotions, as if nothing in my life has altered
Maybe I wouldn't have moved to outrun you
Perhaps I wouldn't have relocated to escape from you
Or maybe I'd have stuck around
Or maybe I would have stayed, faced the challenges
Got so close to breaking down
Reached a point where I almost succumbed to emotional breakdown
But not out
But I persevered, not defeated
Maybe I'd be in California righting wrongs
Possibly I might be in California, correcting mistakes
Or maybe I'd go back to school
Alternatively, I could have returned to academic pursuits
Drink until I wasn't blue
Indulging in alcohol until my sorrows disappeared
Or I forget you
Or attempting to forget about you
I'd say I hate you but I know that it's not true
Expressing hatred would be dishonest because deep down, I know it's not true
'Cause you were just like me
Recognizing similarities between us
How's that for irony?
Highlighting the irony of the situation
I've got a knack for making up what you lack
Claiming a skill for compensating for what you lack
And forgiving you too much
And forgiving you excessively
Or maybe it's not enough
Or maybe it's not sufficient forgiveness
I'm not sure
Uncertain about the adequacy of forgiveness
Maybe I'd be back in Texas
Perhaps I would be back in Texas
Where I left a part of me that you'll never meet
Leaving a part of myself behind that you will never know
Maybe I'd see that you were never good for me
Maybe I would realize that you were never right for me
The way I wanted you to be
Not meeting the expectations I had for you
And what hurts worse
Pointing out that what is more painful
Is the way you made me think that maybe
Is the way you led me to believe that perhaps
I'm the same
I am unchanged
I'm the same
Reiterating the idea that I am the same
I'm the same
Emphasizing my consistency
I'm the same
Stating again that I remain unchanged
I'm the same
Reaffirming my identity
I'm the same
Insisting that I am still the same
I'll never change
Declaring that I will never undergo a transformation
I'm the same
Reiterating that I am consistent
I'm the same
Asserting once again that I remain unchanged
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