Pushing You Away
Struggling to Hold On
Lyrics
I know you love the way we make up
I understand that you appreciate the reconciliation process between us.
All these stupid fights we don't seem to
We often engage in unnecessary arguments that we struggle to resolve.
figure out
We have difficulty understanding the root cause of our problems.
What the problem is in the first place
It's challenging to identify the initial issue that leads to conflicts.
Never thought it could hurt so bad, always tryna run just to be right back where we left off
I didn't anticipate the emotional pain, and despite trying to move on, we end up where we started.
I don't want to say that this won't ever change but I'm taken aback from all the shit you said
I hesitate to believe that our situation will improve, especially considering hurtful statements from you.
What's the point of being strong if every time I end up numb
Questioning the purpose of strength when it results in emotional numbness every time.
I don't want to be alone without you
Expressing a desire not to face solitude without your presence.
Should I give up give up give up on you?
Contemplating whether to give up on the relationship.
Do I speak up speak up and say the truth?
Considering whether to be honest and vocalize the truth.
There's nothing that I can say
Feeling helpless as there seems to be no words that can make a difference.
I keep pushing you away
Actively creating distance in the relationship, possibly as a defense mechanism.
Don't forget forget the way things were
Reflecting on the past and urging not to forget the positive aspects of the relationship.
Cause I regret regret the day before
Expressing regret for the day preceding the current strained situation.
And there's nothing that I can say
Continuing to create emotional distance despite the desire for closeness.
I keep pushing you away
I'll admit, I played a part and now I'll eat my pride
Acknowledging personal responsibility and being willing to humble oneself.
To tell the truth I knew we'd someway have a fallout
Anticipating a fallout in the relationship and acknowledging previous thoughts about it.
I've wasted too many nights thinking about you
Having spent too much time dwelling on thoughts about the other person.
Never thought I'd leave your texts on read
Unexpectedly ignoring your messages, which was not something I thought would happen.
Always thought that you'd be stuck in my head
Assuming that thoughts of you would persist but realizing they are fading.
But the times have changed yeah you seem okay and I'm still alone here
Noticing that you seem fine, while I remain alone and affected by the changes.
Away, away, away
Expressing a desire to be away from the current situation or emotions.
Have you thrown everything left of us?
Questioning if everything meaningful between us has been discarded.
Away, away, away
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