Lyrics
Oh what a mess I've been
Expressing a feeling of being in a chaotic situation
Burning myself out at both ends
Overexerting oneself physically or emotionally
We're not meant to stretch this thin
Acknowledging the limits of one's capacity
If I keep this up my bones will break skin
Fearful of the consequences of pushing oneself too hard
I need a permanent vacation
Desire for a long-lasting break or escape
Get lost in a perpetual hallucination
Wishing to immerse in a continuous, dreamlike state
I have to forget some days
Recognizing the need to forget and move on from certain days
It's a quicksand world
Characterizing the world as a challenging and unstable environment
Or I take my own way
Contemplating a non-conventional path
It's clear I can't see
Feeling confused or lost
Cause I can't remember who I'm supposed to be
Identity crisis, struggling to remember one's true self
Then I close my eyes so I can run back home
Seeking solace by closing one's eyes and returning to familiar thoughts
When the sound's too loud on the stereo
Volume on the stereo representing overwhelming thoughts or distractions
Playing in my mind
Mind occupied with persistent thoughts or sounds
I need to leave it sometimes
Desire for a break from the mental clutter
The city feels like an undertow
City life likened to a strong, unsettling force
When it gets too loud from the stereo
The impact of external influences on mental well-being
Playing in my mind
Continued struggle with inner noise
But I can always leave it
Retaining the ability to detach from mental turmoil
Feels like I'm supposed to know, everything I've never been shown
Pressure to know everything without guidance
But each time I aim and miss
Repeated failure or missing the mark
I'm a dissertation disproving this
Comparing oneself to a thesis disproving their capabilities
Need to let myself be okay
Embracing self-acceptance and allowing for imperfections
Understand when I'm just in my own way
Acknowledging self-sabotage and the need for change
They keep saying i'm chasing after
External opinions suggesting futile pursuits
Invisible things way up in the rafters
Mental pursuits that seem unattainable
But somehow I just keep talking myself into this
Convincing oneself to continue despite doubts
Then I close my eyes so I can run back home
Repeating the pattern of seeking comfort in familiar thoughts
When the sound's too loud on the stereo
Volume on the stereo as a metaphor for persistent mental challenges
Playing in my mind
Reiteration of the impact of inner noise
I need to leave it sometimes
Recognizing the need for mental breaks
The city feels like an undertow
City life's influence as a force pulling inward
When it gets too loud from the stereo
Overcoming external influences on mental well-being
Playing in my mind
Persistence of inner struggles despite external challenges
But I can always leave it
Maintaining control over one's mental state
We don't choose what we lose but
Reflection on the lack of control over losses in life
No one can hold me tell me what to do
Asserting personal autonomy and resistance to external control
No one asks to go through this
Recognition of the involuntary nature of life's challenges
But I can control how I go through it
Choosing how to navigate and respond to life's challenges
So I close my eyes so I can run back home
Repeating the pattern of seeking solace in familiar thoughts
When the sound's too loud on the stereo
Volume on the stereo as a symbol of persistent challenges
Playing in my mind
Mind preoccupied with overwhelming thoughts or distractions
I need to leave it sometimes
Acknowledging the need for mental breaks
The city feels like an undertow
City life as a force pulling inward, causing inner turmoil
When it gets too loud from the stereo
Overcoming external influences affecting mental peace
Playing in my mind
Persistent challenges represented by the stereo in the mind
But I can always leave it
Maintaining the ability to detach from mental struggles
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