Lyrics
And I spent my days last summer hanging with my friends
Reflecting on spending the previous summer with friends
Well that was when I felt just fine
Feeling fine during that time
I was never the one to free my mind up
Not accustomed to freeing the mind from stress
With all this fucking stress
Expressing overwhelming stress
These anxious thoughts and walls of shame
Dealing with anxious thoughts and walls of shame
They fill my brain
Feeling the impact of negative thoughts in the mind
And I'm trying hard to change
Struggling to make positive changes
And I spent my days this winter trapped inside my car
Describing spending winter inside a car due to safety concerns
Cause "it's not safe to text and drive"
Reflecting on the danger of texting and driving
I can just roll around in my own fire
Metaphorically rolling around in personal challenges
And never put it out
Choosing not to extinguish personal struggles
These flames repel the world away
Personal challenges pushing others away
And I think that that's okay
Accepting the self-isolation as okay
I don't think I'll ever change
Expressing doubt about personal change
And I think that you should know that I...
Asserting continued love for others despite challenges
Still love you all the same
Reaffirming love for others
So don't think I'm not your friend
Assuring friendship despite lapses
When I forget to make amends
Committing to making amends despite forgetfulness
I swear to god, I'm still trying
Expressing ongoing effort and determination
Don't think I'll let you go
Declaring commitment to relationships
These steps were made of slippery stones
Referencing challenging steps in life
But I swear to god, I'm still climbing
Expressing determination to keep moving forward
I swear to god, I'll never stop climbing
Reiterating the commitment to continuous growth
And don't think that I stopped caring
Denying a lack of caring and expressing good intentions
Cause I want the best for all of you
Wishing the best for others
If you want it
Qualifying good intentions with the condition of others wanting it
And I hope that I'll stop staring at the unlikelihoods that face me
Expressing hope to overcome unlikely challenges
They're scaring away my logic
Describing fear interfering with logical thinking
Well I don't want this
Rejecting undesirable situations
And we'd all refrain from picking up an object
Advising against dealing with challenging objects
That appear to be to heavy to handle
Emphasizing the appearance of difficulty
So believe me when I say
Stating that appearances can be deceiving
My head might appear to be as light as a feather
Acknowledging inner struggles despite outward appearance
But I've bottled up so many sticks and stones
Symbolizing internal emotional burdens
If you pick me up, it'll break your bones apart
Warning that opening up may cause harm to others
And I spent my days last summer hanging with my friends
Repeating the theme of spending summer with friends
That was when I felt just fine
Recalling a time when everything felt okay
I was never the one to free my mind up
Reiterating difficulty freeing the mind from stress
With all this fucking stress, these anxious thoughts
Acknowledging ongoing stress and anxious thoughts
And walls of shame
Describing the mental impact of shame
They fill my brain
Emphasizing the mental struggle
And I want to apologize
Apologizing for past actions or behavior
And I'm wondering why you're wondering why
Expressing curiosity about someone else's questioning
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