Lyrics
When I felt my heart fall
Experiencing a decline in emotions or mood.
I thought it wouldn't last long
Expecting the negative emotions to be temporary.
I didn't think I'd like you that much
Surprised by the depth of affection for someone.
But when you were around me
Feeling a positive change when the person is present.
The more I felt my heart beat
Experiencing an increase in heart rate due to affection.
And then I knew you were more than just a crush
Realizing that the emotions go beyond a simple crush.
I told myself I'm dreaming
Considering the positive emotions as a dream.
To push away those feelings
Trying to suppress the feelings.
That I didn't want to have
Not wanting to acknowledge certain emotions.
Since you didn't have them back
Realizing that the other person doesn't reciprocate.
One day I moved on, and
Moving on from the emotions.
Forgot all of the promises
Forgetting promises made during the emotional phase.
I made to you back then
But even if I don't remember all of it
Unable to completely forget the past emotions.
I can't erase it from my heart
The emotions linger in the heart despite efforts to erase them.
I've tried to brush it off
Attempting to ignore or dismiss the emotions.
But I never could 'cause every time we talk
Unable to brush off the emotions, especially during conversations.
I know I never lost
Asserting that the emotional victory is retained.
The feelings I forgot
Retaining the emotions that were thought to be forgotten.
I wonder what you're up to
Curious about the other person's current life.
I wish that I could ask you
Expressing a desire to reconnect and catch up.
And catch up on the things I don't know
Wanting to know about the events and changes in the other person's life.
But if I never go to see you
Expressing a reluctance to meet, fearing the resurgence of feelings.
I swear that I don't mean to
Clarifying that avoiding a meeting is not intentional.
I'm just scared that my feelings will show
Fearful that emotions might become apparent during the meeting.
I tell myself I'm dreaming
Convincing oneself that the positive emotions are just a dream.
To push away these feelings
Attempting to suppress persistent emotions.
That I wish I didn't have
Wishing not to have certain emotions.
Makes it hard to message back
Feeling challenged to respond due to conflicting emotions.
I wanna be your friend, and
Expressing a desire for friendship while letting go of past promises.
Forget all of the promises
I made to you back then
-But even if I don't remember all of it
Even if specific memories are forgotten, the emotions persist.
I can't erase it from my heart
Unable to remove emotional traces from the heart.
I've tried to brush it off
Trying unsuccessfully to dismiss lingering emotions.
But I never could 'cause every time we talked
Emphasizing the persistence of emotions during conversations.
I know I never lost
Reaffirming that the emotional victory remains intact.
The feelings I forgot
And I know I'm thinkin' way too hard
Overthinking the situation but keeping emotions hidden.
But I'll keep this deep inside my heart
Choosing to keep intense emotions internally.
I'm missin' you a lot
Expressing a strong longing for the other person.
But I'll never call, 'cause if we ever talked
Resisting the urge to initiate contact to avoid emotional revelation.
You'll know I never lost
Acknowledging the persistent emotions despite not expressing them.
The feelings I forgot
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