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Taking pictures of myself now
Taking self-portraits now
Cleaning up all of the room
Cleaning and organizing the space
Always feeling so stressed out
Consistently experiencing high levels of stress
When I plan on calling you
Planning to contact you
Please don't open your mouth
Requesting silence or discretion
Sit and listen to my nonsense
Sit quietly and hear my nonsensical thoughts
Oh boy you figured me out
Realizing someone has understood me
Sorry for not being honest
Apologizing for being dishonest
I don't want to try
Unwillingness to make an effort
One more time
Reluctance for another attempt
You gave me everything I want
You provided everything desired
Except for some peace of mind
However, lacking inner peace
So throw it away for me
Discard it on my behalf
Hoping I can do no wrong
Desiring infallibility
Eyes that keep controlling me
Feeling controlled by someone's gaze
I cannot wait to go back to the start
Eager to return to the beginning
Always good at ranting
Skilled at expressing complaints
I'm never good at kissing you
Unable to express affection well
And I'm so good at pretending
Proficient at feigning emotions
I'm never good at missing you
Not skilled at genuinely missing someone
Sorry about that
Expressing regret for shortcomings
I should be better when I calm down
Commitment to improvement during calm moments
Right now I'm fucking angry
Presently experiencing intense anger
I should be better when my guard's down
Intention to improve when defenses are down
I don't want to try
Unwillingness to make an effort
One more time
Reluctance for another attempt
You gave me everything I want
You provided everything desired
Except for some peace of mind
However, lacking inner peace
So throw it away for me
Discard it on my behalf
Hoping I can do no wrong
Desiring infallibility
Eyes that keep controlling me
Feeling controlled by someone's gaze
I cannot wait to go back to the start
Eager to return to the beginning
When we lived in bitter symphony
Recalling a period of discordant existence
I tried, I can't decipher
Struggling to understand
All the shit you did to me
Unable to empathize with mistreatment
I can't find my sympathy
Feeling a lack of compassion or understanding
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