Lyrics
Have I lost my mind?
Questioning one's sanity or emotional stability
I thought I learned my lesson,
Reflecting on past experiences and supposed lessons
But I guess my heart just didn't get the message
Realizing that the heart hasn't internalized the lessons learned
Why'd I try to think this one would be different?
Wondering why the individual expected a different outcome
Why'd I try to find out?
Questioning the motivation behind seeking answers
Memories and insecurities keep knocking on my door
Past memories and insecurities resurfacing
I cover up, Turn off the lights
Attempting to avoid and escape from intrusive thoughts
I don't want to deal with them no more
Expressing a desire to avoid dealing with past issues
But at night I lose all my inhibitions,
Struggling with inhibitions, particularly at night
One more time to find out
Willing to confront the challenges again, despite reservations
(Knock, knock, knock)
Depicting the sound of a door knock and its opening
(Door opens)
-My eyes turn white as they walk into the room
Encountering a presence with an unsettling effect
This time I'll find that there's not much I could do
Accepting limited control over the situation
Except try to pray,
Turning to prayer as a coping mechanism
But the darkness always seems to lighten the load
Darkness seems to alleviate the burden
The lowly tarnished only sees the light in the road
Those with flaws can still see positivity
And to be honest,
Expressing discomfort with the path taken
I don't really like where it goes
Expressing hesitations about the journey
But I ride away,
Choosing to continue despite reservations
Cover the scar on my chest
Concealing emotional wounds
Cause I knew it'd get cold
Anticipating challenges and preparing for emotional coldness
I put my heart on the desk
Symbolically placing vulnerability on display
where I left you a note:
Leaving a message about heartlessness and vulnerability
"The heartless are the only who remain unscathed
Commenting on the resilience of the emotionally detached
The monsters under my bed take me away
Symbolic representation of fears and anxieties
And I don't know if it's a lie to say I'll find my way
Uncertainty about finding one's way through challenges
Or if I'm gonna die today
Contemplating the possibility of facing mortality
But either way,
Indicating acceptance of fate, whatever it may be
I leave it all to you"
Putting trust or surrendering control to an external force
Have I lost my mind?
Repetition of earlier themes, expressing ongoing struggles
I thought I learned my lesson,
-But I guess my heart just didn't get the message
-Why'd I try to think this one would be different?
-Why'd I try to find out?
-Memories and insecurities keep knocking on my door
-I cover up, Turn off the lights
-I don't want to deal with them no more
-But at night I lose all my inhibitions,
-One more time to find out
Repeating the cycle of facing inhibitions and challenges
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