Lyrics
She told me all her secrets
She confided in me, sharing personal information.
She shared her feelings whole
She expressed her emotions openly and completely.
She said she loved me, the time we spent talking about all her demons woah
She claimed to love me, and we discussed her inner struggles.
Thought we fell in love
Initially believed we were in love.
But she used me as a bag to be beaten up
She treated me as a target for her frustrations and aggression.
All the punches weak, thought I'd be strong enough
Despite enduring her attacks, I thought I could withstand them.
To stop from blows coming at her like a bullet nah
Failed to protect myself from the verbal assaults.
She be pouring her heart out to all of the people that happen to be round her
She shared her vulnerable moments with others, evoking pity.
Making me pity the things that she'd been through
Her experiences made me feel sorry for her.
I need my protection
I sought self-protection in the relationship.
So I make myself all available
Made myself emotionally available for her.
But she just leave on grey double texts woah
She ignored my messages, leaving them on "read."
Acting as if she don't see em when
Ignored my attempts to communicate.
Girl never leaves her lil phone out her palm, say she be reading the Psalms
She always had her phone with her, claiming to read religious texts.
Gotta chill, that's what she told me, say she trying to instil
Advised me to relax, stating she was trying to improve herself.
Couple values to improve herself but still
Despite efforts to change, she remained the same.
I must be patient and be willing to be still, never mine
I needed patience, waiting for her to evolve, but it was never reciprocated.
That's when I knew that she don't care about my desires
Realized she disregarded my wants and needs.
Try to talk about it, she'd just stare and smile
Attempts to discuss were met with silence and a smile.
Belittle everything I say, yet I remain there by her side
She diminished my words, yet I remained loyal.
Why did I stay there
Questioning why I stayed despite the mistreatment.
Take advantage of me, then she would
She took advantage of my vulnerability.
Tell me all her secrets
Repetition of sharing personal information.
She'd share her feelings more
Continued to express her emotions.
She said she loved the time we spent talking about her demons woah
Repeated declaration of love and discussion of her struggles.
Thought we fell in love
Realization that the perceived love was not genuine.
But she used me as a bag to be beaten up
She continued to use me as an emotional punching bag.
All the punches weak, thought I'd be strong enough
Despite weak apologies, I believed I could endure.
To stop from blows coming at her like a bullet nah
Failed to prevent emotional harm from affecting me.
She be pouring her heart out to all of the people that happen to be round her
She sought sympathy from those around her.
Making me pity the things that she'd been through
Others pitied her experiences, affecting me emotionally.
I need my protection
Reiteration of the need for self-protection.
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