Purity
Chasing Purity: A Soul's Struggle in the Cityscape
Lyrics
When I turned around to look into the backseat of my car
Reflecting on looking back into the rear seats of the car
Only shadows took the space of where you are
Empty space now occupied by shadows instead of a person
It's still a shadow all the same
The absence remains similar to a shadow
A void that takes up space inside my brain
An emptiness occupying mental space
And the purity, it makes me go insane
The feeling of purity causes mental distress
Sitting on a New York City train
Sitting on a train in New York City
Not going anywhere, just hiding from the rain
Not moving, seeking refuge from the rain
And I walked along the avenues and read between the lines
Walking through streets, analyzing beyond surface details
And I called upon my mom a couple times
Contacting mother multiple times
Anything "New" is a charade
Anything new feels like a facade or pretense
And there's a part of me that wishes I had stayed
Regret for not remaining in a certain situation
Cause the purity, it makes me go insane
The concept of purity causing mental distress continues
Can never fall asleep cause of the strain
Difficulty sleeping due to stress
So I look out of my window at the rain
Gazing at the rain from the window
Sleeping in a bed that's not my own
Resting in a bed that doesn't belong to the speaker
Staying in a house that's not my home
Residing in a house that doesn't feel like home
And I'm still clean
Emphasizing the feeling of being untainted or pure
And I'm still clean
Reiteration of the feeling of cleanliness or purity
Ripped the posters from my bedside after sounding the alarm
Removing posters after an alarm, feeling consequences for actions
It's as if all of my actions cause me harm
Sensing that personal choices lead to harm or negative outcomes
These are the choices I have made
Acknowledging personal decisions made by the speaker
And I'm fucking sick and tired of the shame
Expressing frustration and exhaustion with shame
Cause the purity, it makes me go insane
Continued distress due to the concept of purity
Experiences not matched to a name
Experiences not aligning with identifiable names or labels
Lying down and waiting for the rain
Lying down and anticipating the arrival of rain
Cause the purity, it makes me go insane
Reiterating the mental impact of purity
Cause the purity, it makes me go insane
Reiteration of how purity causes mental distress
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