Lyrics
I'm so nervous of the future
I experience anxiety about what lies ahead in the future.
I start shaking when I'm scared
When frightened, I physically react by shaking.
I feel I disappoint my family
I feel a sense of letting down my family.
I don't wanna cut my hair
I am reluctant to change my physical appearance, possibly as a symbolic resistance to change.
I get defeated like its easy
I easily feel defeated and tend to isolate myself for the day.
Close my self off for the day
I close myself off emotionally or socially.
Lay my head down at my desk
I express a sense of exhaustion or defeat by laying my head down at my desk.
When's your album coming out?
People inquire about the release date of my album, possibly related to the pressures of success.
I've never lived my life this different
I acknowledge a significant change in my life, feeling an emptiness that wasn't there before.
Maybe empty is the word
The word "empty" may capture the essence of this change.
I feel I'm different from before
I sense a difference in myself from the past, though uncertain if it's positive or not.
But in a good way, I'm not sure
Expressing uncertainty about whether the change is ultimately beneficial.
And all my friends they have their friends
I feel disconnected from my friends who seem preoccupied with their own social circles.
But me, I'm never on their mind
I perceive a lack of consideration from others; I'm not frequently in their thoughts.
It's hard to make an inch of progress
Progress is challenging when feeling left behind or stagnant.
When you feel your left behind, yeah
Expressing the difficulty of advancing when one feels socially or personally stagnant.
I got two tickets to the MOMA if you wanna go
I extend an invitation to an event, possibly seeking companionship or connection.
I never knew just what would happen if I lost control
Uncertainty about the consequences of losing control in a situation.
I grab ahold of all my feelings while I sink below
I confront and grapple with my emotions while experiencing a decline or descent.
I walk the streets of San Francisco feeling all alone
I navigate the streets of San Francisco while feeling a deep sense of isolation.
I got two tickets to the MOMA if you wanna go
Reiteration of the invitation to the MOMA, perhaps emphasizing a desire for shared experiences.
I never knew just what would happen if I lost control
Continuation of uncertainty about the consequences of losing control.
I grab ahold of all my feelings while I sink below
Repeating the theme of grappling with emotions amid a decline or descent.
I walk the streets of San Francisco feeling all alone
Reinforcement of the feeling of loneliness while navigating the streets of San Francisco.
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