Letter To My Former Self

Rebirth Through Glass Stones: N.U.M.B.'s Letter to Self
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Lyrics

A decade and a half, and I'm better than half a decade Went from student to teacher and then

A reflection on the speaker's progress over 15 years, having surpassed the achievements of the past five years.

became my own sensei And now I'm throwing glass stones inside

The speaker evolved from a student to a teacher and eventually became self-taught (sensei).

of a cave to watch them detonate Sitting here alone with the aftermath trying

Metaphorically describing throwing challenges into a situation to observe their impact, followed by introspection.

to meditate Regulate a spectator and keep him in the distance

Assuming a role of regulation and maintaining distance from others, possibly due to past experiences.

Efficiently finish him like what's left on the dishes

Efficiently completing tasks, using a metaphor involving finishing what remains on dishes.

Explicitly vicious, my venom, leave him with the fishes

Expressing aggression and the impact of the speaker's words using venomous language.

Officially witnessed swimmers that quivered final wishes

Observing individuals facing their final moments and the speaker's detachment from their fate.

'Cause the bars that I delivered spitting acid got you tripping

The speaker's impactful bars are like acid, causing a strong reaction and questioning reality.

Wondering if I'ma come through the window like I was slim

Suggesting a threatening entrance, reminiscent of a Slim Shady reference.


But now I'm meaner than that, now I'm eager to scrap

The speaker has grown more aggressive and confident, relying on skill rather than curses.

And I don't have to ride a curse because I'm gifted in rap

The speaker is naturally gifted in rap and dismisses the need for cursing.

But fuck that, see me coming like the basics are back

Asserting dominance, comparing the return to basics with Dora the Explorer needing a map.

If you're lost then you better go and ask Dora for a map

Indicating determination to succeed despite challenges.

Bring an orange and then hoard it before the Four door Ford is back

Metaphorically hoarding success before others recognize it.

Look at that, I'm still gonna make it with the target on my back

The speaker anticipates success despite challenges and criticism.


This is only the beginning, so don't be giving me pity

The speaker views current success as just the beginning and rejects pity.

You weren't there when I was down, you only doubted me winning

Addressing those who doubted the speaker during difficult times.

You weren't around when I was out and I was roaming the city

Highlighting isolation during tough times in contrast to others in comfort.

You were up inside a house all nice and warm with a titty

Emphasizing the harsh reality of life compared to a comforting notion.

That isn't sweet anymore, I heard that it's tough from the kitty

Refuting the sweetness of life with a metaphorical reference to the harsh truth from a "kitty."

You only talk behind my back when you don't think I'ma hear it

Pointing out gossip and negative talk behind the speaker's back.

Now I'm counting all the times I heard the thunder, but don't fear it

Reflecting on overcoming challenges represented by thunder and not fearing them.

I'm only striking lightning twice in the same place if I'm near it

Metaphorically striking lightning only when in close proximity, indicating selectivity in facing challenges.


You better recognize we're wrecking eyes with an appearance

Emphasizing the speaker's impactful presence and the need to acknowledge it.

It's apparent I'm a parent, but it's time that I should air it

Acknowledging parenthood but expressing a need to address it openly.

I got a son who lives less than 30 miles away

Introducing the speaker's son living nearby and the challenges in maintaining a relationship.

With a mom that let us meet, but only if I don't relay

Conditions for meeting the son involve not sharing certain aspects of the speaker's life.

All the facts about my life, how he has sisters by my name

Revealing the existence of daughters with the same name, implying a complex family dynamic.

Unnecessary drama was the phrase she chose to take

Reference to drama caused by withholding information and selective communication.

Said my daughters weren't his sisters, bitch that's DNA

Challenging a statement denying familial ties using DNA as evidence.

Like the test you never even wanted me to fucking take

Recalling an unwanted paternity test and the speaker's determination to face challenges.

Now I'm looking at the picture like a clone of my own face

Observing a family photo and seeing a resemblance, contemplating the speaker's legacy.

And I promise by the time that I'm laying inside my grave

Expressing a commitment to ensuring the speaker's son understands love and greatness.

My son'll get to know how much I loved him, why he's great

Reflecting on the speaker's daily prayers for the safety and well-being of the son.

Why I've never gone a day without praying that he was safe

Concluding with the speaker's hope for the son's awareness of love and greatness.

The lyrics of this song contain explicit content.
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