Lyrics
These days I been dreamin' vivid
Expressing intense and vivid dreams experienced recently.
I know I been keepin' distance
Acknowledging a conscious effort to maintain distance or emotional detachment.
Feels like I'm in the backseat of my mind
Feeling like a passive observer in one's own thoughts, lacking control.
And I can't take the wheel even if I tried
Expressing a sense of powerlessness, unable to take control of one's life.
I- I feel like I'm losing my mind
Describing a feeling of mental instability and potential loss of sanity.
I-I can't even feel sometimes
Emphasizing emotional numbness or detachment, difficulty in feeling.
I don't have to feel
Choosing not to experience emotions consciously.
Cause I know that it's real
Asserting the reality of the situation, possibly implying a harsh truth.
When's the last time that I sat back
Reflecting on the last time the speaker took a passive role in life.
Pressure on my shoulders like a mother fuckin' backpack
Conveying a heavy burden or stress, akin to a backpack.
Women from back home be actin' like a fuckin' rat pack
Describing negative behavior from people back home.
Niggas always tellin' me I need to fuckin' clap back
Recounting advice to retaliate against negativity.
But I ain't got no time for that
Expressing a lack of time or inclination for confrontation.
Cause I'm searchin' for god
Searching for spirituality or deeper meaning in life.
And confidence
Seeking confidence in oneself.
Can't show that I'm tired
Struggling to show signs of fatigue or vulnerability.
My daughter's watchin' me
Acknowledging the influence of personal actions on the observer, possibly a daughter.
When the dust settles and the clouds part
Contemplating the aftermath of challenges and difficulties.
What do you have left?
Pondering what remains when faced with adversity.
When all the people you loved before you loved before yourself leave
Highlighting the departure of those who were once loved, emphasizing self-love.
Who do you have left?
Posing a question about the support system when faced with loss.
When all the friends who ain't really friends
Recognizing the true nature of friends who reveal themselves in difficult times.
Show their true colors
Questioning where to turn for support when faced with betrayal.
Where can you turn next?
Expressing a desire for self-love comparable to love for others.
I wish I loved me as much as I love you
Expressing a wish for self-love equal to the love for others.
Wish I loved gray skies as much as I love blue
Comparing the appreciation for both challenging and easy times.
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