Forgot How to Cry
Rediscovering Emotion: Narrowhaven's Journey Through Inner Turmoil
Lyrics
There's an illness in this heart of mine
Expressing a sense of inner turmoil or emotional distress within the speaker's heart.
And I don't know if I'll ever recover
Uncertainty about the possibility of recovering from the emotional struggles mentioned.
Self-inflicted wounds consume my mind
Acknowledging self-inflicted emotional pain dominating the speaker's thoughts.
And every time I try to win the fight again, it's over
Continuous struggles to overcome emotional challenges, with repeated feelings of defeat.
So I learn to hold it in
Learning to suppress emotions and endure the pain without expressing it outwardly.
And wait until it dies 'cause
Choosing to endure emotional suffering until it naturally subsides.
Lord knows I won't let go this time
Expressing a determination not to let go of the emotional pain this time.
Now I wonder where the wonder has gone
Reflecting on the loss of a sense of wonder or amazement in life.
'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong
Describing a numbness or lack of emotional response that feels unsettling.
As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life
Seeking refuge in a particular mindset associated with the speaker's life experiences.
I can't believe I truly am surprised
Expressing surprise at the speaker's own emotional state.
I think I forgot how to cry
Acknowledging a loss of the ability to cry as a significant emotional shift.
There was loveliness in everything
Recalling a time when everything had a sense of beauty and positivity.
And every phrase was like a poem
Describing a past where every expression was poetic and filled with loveliness.
Now my world is full of irony and apathy
Contrasting the current world with irony and apathy, highlighting a negative transformation.
Yeah, I fell into this cycle without knowing
Falling into a cycle of negative emotions without conscious awareness.
And I learned to hold it in
Learning to endure emotional pain and waiting for it to fade away.
Then wait until it dies 'cause
Continuing the theme of enduring emotional suffering until it naturally ends.
Lord knows I won't let go this time
Reiterating a strong determination not to release the emotional pain.
Now I wonder where the wonder has gone
Questioning the disappearance of wonder and amazement in life.
'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong
Describing a lack of emotional sensation, feeling wrong.
As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life
Seeking refuge in a specific state of mind associated with the speaker's life experiences.
I can't believe I truly am surprised
Expressing surprise at the current emotional state.
I think I forgot how to cry
Reiterating the central theme of forgetting how to cry as a profound loss.
Is there strength in vulnerability?
Questioning whether vulnerability holds strength in the speaker's emotional context.
Are there tears in masculinity?
Exploring the potential conflict between tears and traditional notions of masculinity.
Is it my pride that's getting in the way?
Considering if pride is hindering the expression of vulnerable emotions.
I want chills from hearing symphonies
Expressing a desire for emotional intensity through the experience of hearing symphonies.
And to see the art in simple things
Yearning to appreciate the art in simple things, contrasting with current emotional suffocation.
But I suffocate my feelings while my heart is bleeding out
Describing a conflict where emotions are suppressed while the heart is metaphorically bleeding.
I just wanna feel, but I've forgotten how
Expressing a desire to feel emotions again, juxtaposed with the struggle of forgetting how.
Now I wonder where the wonder has gone
Reiterating the questioning of the disappearance of wonder in life.
'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong
Reiterating the lack of emotional sensation, feeling wrong.
As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life
Seeking refuge in a specific state of mind associated with the speaker's life experiences.
I can't believe I truly am surprised
Expressing surprise at the current emotional state.
I think I forgot how to cry
Reiterating the central theme of forgetting how to cry as a profound loss.
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