Lying to Myself
Love's Deceptive Echoes: Narrowhaven's Emotional Odyssey
Lyrics
First of all, I miss you
Expressing a sense of longing or nostalgia for someone.
And secondly, I never want to see your face again
Declaring a strong desire to avoid encountering the person again.
I get that it makes no sense
Acknowledging the apparent lack of logic or reason in the situation.
Oh but I've been trying to forget that I remember you exist
Struggling to forget the existence of the person despite efforts.
I'm just exhausted cuz you said you needed me
Feeling tired or drained due to the emotional investment in the relationship.
And I took that way too seriously
Reflecting on taking the person's needs too seriously.
So forgive me for saying I'm sorry
Apologizing for past actions and expressing remorse.
I don't need nobody, except maybe you
Claiming independence but hinting at a lingering attachment to the person.
Is it true love if I don't love anyone else?
Questioning the authenticity of love if it's exclusive to one person.
Maybe it's time that I stop lying to myself
Contemplating the need to stop deceiving oneself about the emotions involved.
I'll make another playlist
Deciding to create a playlist with direct messages meant for the person.
With words I'd say directly to your face if I was brave enough
Expressing a desire to communicate directly if courage allows.
But instead I will give it a title that matches yours
Naming the playlist after the person as a subtle form of communication.
Then listen with my headphones in
Choosing to listen to the playlist privately and introspectively.
And wonder what I'm crying for
Questioning the emotional reasons behind tears during the listening experience.
I'm just exhausted cuz you said you needed me
Reiterating the emotional exhaustion from feeling needed by the person.
And I took that way too seriously
Acknowledging the seriousness of previous actions and seeking forgiveness.
So forgive me for saying I'm sorry
Repeating the apology and expressing independence with a nuanced exception.
I don't need nobody, except maybe you
Reaffirming self-sufficiency while hinting at continued emotional ties.
Is it true love if I don't love anyone else?
Raising doubts about the nature of love if exclusive to one person.
Maybe it's time that I stop lying to myself
Reconsidering the need to be honest with oneself about emotions.
Circle back to the topic of how you seem to move on
Returning to the topic of the person's ability to move on in relationships.
Cuz I've been acting psychotic
Admitting to behaving irrationally, possibly due to emotional distress.
Been talking to people who've been long gone
Indicating conversations with people from the past, emphasizing isolation.
I'm not even talking to you, I'm talking to myself
Clarifying that the dialogue is internal, expressing fear of the person.
Cuz I'm afraid of you
Admitting fear of the person, suggesting vulnerability.
I'm afraid of the truth
Expressing fear of facing the truth about the situation.
So forgive me for saying I'm sorry
Repeating apologies, possibly due to internal conflict and confusion.
I don't need nobody, except maybe you
Emphasizing independence but admitting a potential need for the person.
Is it true love if I don't love anyone else?
Raising questions about the authenticity of love in a restricted context.
Maybe it's time that I stop lying to myself
Considering the necessity of ending self-deception regarding emotions.
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