Her, Instead
Love's Deception: A Heart's Cry for Truth
Lyrics
You were so careless with your words (Words)
You were careless with your words, causing hurt.
Had me convinced that I was yours
Convinced me of a commitment that wasn't genuine.
I spent so many nights
Nights spent avoiding conflict.
Not trying to pick a fight
Choosing not to engage in arguments.
I sat and told you all my fears
Shared fears with you.
You told me seven years
Was told about a seven-year commitment.
I shut out my thoughts and called them lies
Ignored doubts, labeling them as lies.
You made me believe that you were mine
Believed you were mine based on deception.
So imagine my surprise
Surprised to discover I was right.
When it turns out was I right
Realization that you replaced pain with playing games.
You went to substitute your pain
Questioning if thoughts are with someone else in bed.
For playing my heart like a game
Wishing it was her instead of me.
Tell me, do you think about her when were laying in bed
Doubting the sincerity of your love.
Do you wish it wasn't me, but rather her instead
Your actions contradicting words of love.
You say you love me, but I feel like you're not telling the truth
Feeling mistreated despite claims of love.
Cause if you cared you wouldn't treat me as bad as you do
Expressing care should prevent mistreatment.
I can't be your resting stop to hurt
Refusing to be a rebound from a failed relationship.
Just cause it didn't work with her first
Rejecting the idea of being second choice.
And I'm not the type, not insecure
Asserting self-confidence, not insecure.
But I can't help think you see her
Speculating if you see her when looking at me.
When you're looking in my eyes
Questioning the sincerity of your gaze.
Is she who you fantasize?
Wondering if she is the object of your fantasies.
Bout' when you're sleeping next to me
Contemplating your thoughts when sleeping beside me.
That's not how loves supposed to be
Realizing love is not supposed to be this way.
Tell me, do you think about her when were laying in bed
Repeating the question about thoughts in bed.
Do you wish it wasn't me, but rather her instead
Reiterating the desire to be her instead of me.
You say you love me, but I feel like you're not telling the truth
Repeating doubts about the sincerity of your love.
Cause if you cared you wouldn't treat me as bad as you do
Stating mistreatment contradicts genuine care.
Said you want to build a life
Expressing commitment to building a life together.
You told me I would be your wife
Told I would be your wife, but doubts arise.
I know she heard you say it too
Acknowledging she heard the same promises.
Repeating patterns what you do
Noting a pattern of repeated behavior.
Don't give excuses for the reasons that you don't treat me well
Rejecting excuses for mistreatment.
When you know deep down that you're still in love with somebody else
Recognizing lingering feelings for someone else.
I'll wipe the version of our life that I built up in my head
Accepting the need to erase the idealized life.
Cause now I know that you had wished it was with her instead
Understanding the preference for her over me.
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