Locked
Locked Away Emotions: Nathan Irving's Journey Through Heartbreak
Lyrics
There's a room in my head
Reflecting on a mental space that has been vacant
That's been empty for a while
Empty space in the mind for an extended period
And so far I've been fine with that
Acceptance of the emptiness in the mental space
It was filled for a bit
Mention of past occupancy with items and love
With posters, clothes, and records
Details of what filled the mental space temporarily
And the love that used to live in it
Reference to the love that once existed
Lock it up
Command to close off or protect the mental space
There's a hole in my heart
Describing emotional pain resembling a void
That looks a lot like Boston
Comparing the emotional pain to a location, Boston
And I try not to look to long
Avoiding dwelling too long on emotional pain
Cause I swear if you stare at the dark then it starts
Imagining sounds associated with memories
To sound like she's there laughing
Perceiving the presence of a past love in the darkness
And you'll find bright blue eyes gazing back at you
Seeing memories of a loved one in one's mind
Lock it up
Reiteration of the command to close off or protect
Lock it up
Repeating the idea of securing the mental space
There's nothing here to see
Asserting that there is nothing worth seeing inside
Lock it up
Reinforcement of the need to lock away emotions
Lock it up
Repetition of the concept of securing the emotional space
Just some missing parts of me
Describing the locked-away emotions as missing parts
There are rooms in my life
Acknowledging inaccessible moments from the past
That I know I can't go back to
Acknowledging the impossibility of revisiting certain experiences
And there are facts no one has to know
Referring to undisclosed facts and memories
See I logged miles around your apartment
Recalling specific actions around someone's residence
I could write a book just about your carpet
Noteworthy details about the person's apartment
And in my closet there's a box of what's left of my notes
Storage of remnants from the past in a closet
I locked them up
Choosing to keep memories locked away
Locked them up
Repeating the act of securing memories
Now I dream every night
Engaging in vivid dreams related to an airport
That I'm stuck in O'Hare Airport
Feeling stuck in an airport setting in dreams
I'm on time, but I can't seem to find my gate
Being on time but unable to find the way forward
And I hate myself for leaving after dinner by the river
Regret over leaving a pleasant memory
I'd rather pick a fucking fight with TSA
Expressing a preference for conflict over departure
And they'll say
Anticipating a judgmental response
"Lock him up!"
Repetition of the command to lock away
"Lock him up!"
Reiteration of the idea of confinement
And I won't disagree
Acknowledging agreement with the suggested confinement
"Lock him up!"
Repeating the idea of being locked up
I'll let them lock me up
Acceptance of confinement if accompanied by a loved one
As long as you're there with me
Expressing a willingness to be confined with a loved one
There's a room in my head
Returning to the room in the mind, recalling happiness
I was happy when you rented
Recalling a positive moment related to the mental space
It still feels wrong to try to move your things
Struggling with the idea of moving on from the past
It was easier to lock the door and keep your key in storage
Choosing to lock away memories instead of facing them
But I'm not sure it's done much good for me
Uncertain about the effectiveness of locking away memories
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