Lyrics
I swipe left and right
Engaging in casual dating through a mobile app
Just to curve my appetite
Using this behavior to suppress or control desire
To love on you a little til I'm through
Expressing affection until it no longer serves
Cause it's always black and white
Life's situations are perceived as either/or with no gray areas
A feeding frenzy or a diet
Comparing relationships to extremes: intense or restricted
Sickening how bad I wanna lose
Intense desire to break free despite the discomfort
But I, think
Reflecting on personal thoughts
There are parts of me
Aspects of self that may remain unexplored
That I'll never find if I do
Fear of losing identity in relationships
So, this is where I stand now
Current stance or viewpoint
Can't have you or anyone else
Declaring emotional unavailability
This is where I stand now
Reiteration of emotional closure
Take a number on your way out
Suggesting detachment or moving on
Your way out
Reinforcing the departure of someone
Your way out
Emphasizing the exit or departure of the person
Still feelin' so behind
Feeling emotionally immature or lagging in progress
Like I did in junior high
Revisiting feelings of inadequacy from adolescence
Wish someone would have told me it's for life
Wishing for earlier guidance in understanding enduring emotions
That feeling that you get
Pain of abandonment leading to a sense of worthlessness
When someone leaves you better dead
Impact of a breakup on self-worth and life trajectory
And suddenly you're two years down the line
Reflecting on the passage of time post-heartbreak
So I'll watch repeats
Seeking solace in nostalgic memories
Of my favorite scenes
Revisiting pleasant memories until love doesn’t repulse
Til love doesn't make me wanna puke
Aiming for emotional healing
So, this is where I stand now
Reiteration of current emotional stance
(This is where I stand now)
Reinforcing current emotional state
Don't want you or anyone else
Reiterating lack of desire for a relationship
(No I don't want you or anyone else right now)
Strongly emphasizing current emotional detachment
This is where I stand now
Reiterating the stance of emotional detachment
(This is where I stand now)
Reinforcing the need to move on
Take a number on your way out
Suggesting closure for the departing person
Your way out
Emphasizing the person’s exit
Your way out
Reiteration of the person’s exit
This is where I stand now
Reaffirming emotional detachment
Can't have you or anyone else
Restating emotional unavailability
This is where I stand now
Reiterating the emotional stance
I've been waiting for this feeling so long
Longing for a particular emotional state for a while
So long
Expressing the duration of emotional anticipation
Cause I've been waiting for this feeling so long
Reaffirming the anticipation of a particular emotional state
I've been waiting for this feeling
Continued anticipation of a particular emotional state
I've been waiting
Reiteration of waiting for a specific feeling
Maybe it's not a prize
Questioning the worth of compromising in love
To love someone in compromise
Consideration of the drawbacks of compromising in a relationship
When it's your inhibitions up for trial
When one’s self-restraints are scrutinized or tested in love
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