Lyrics
Stare at the ceilings gradient
Contemplating and observing the changing colors of the ceiling.
Stomach turned by the radiant
Feeling nauseous due to something exceptionally bright or radiant.
That I'm a no one and impatient
Acknowledging one's sense of insignificance and impatience.
A quick and easy replacement
Feeling replaceable and easily substituted.
My engine running low on oil
Experiencing a lack of energy or motivation, likened to an engine running low on oil.
My heart thrown out with all the spoils
Heartbreak or emotional loss described as losing the heart with all the spoils.
I was struck down by life's recoil
Being negatively affected by the consequences of life's actions.
Left in hell for my skin to boil
Feeling abandoned or punished, as if left in a hellish state.
Too focused on everyone else
Lamenting a lack of self-care due to excessive focus on others.
Forgot to take care of myself
Realizing the neglect of personal well-being amidst external concerns.
I am emptier than bullet shells
Feeling a profound emptiness comparable to discarded bullet shells.
But I did it all to myself
Taking responsibility for the current state of emptiness.
Aperture lowers until I'm gone
Progressively closing oneself off or fading away.
Lost bits of my soul in these songs
Losing parts of one's identity or essence through the expression of music.
Time in this mortal shell prolongs
Time in the mortal existence seems to drag on.
Until I'm sent to where I belong
Anticipating the end and one's place beyond mortality.
Wither away expectations
Expressing a desire to let go of societal expectations.
Throw away my reputation
Willing to discard societal reputation.
Need prayer and meditation
Seeking solace and self-improvement through prayer and meditation.
To stop all my degradation
Desiring an end to personal degradation through spiritual practices.
Wither away expectations
Reiterating the wish to let go of societal expectations.
Throw away my reputation
Reaffirming the willingness to abandon societal reputation.
And chance of accreditation
Giving up the chance of official recognition or approval.
And accept the devastation
Embracing and coming to terms with personal devastation.
Fame is famine to my spirit
Viewing fame as detrimental to one's inner self.
The end is soon I can feel it
Sensing the impending end or conclusion.
World in flames but still hear crickets
Observing chaos around, yet feeling isolated or unheard.
I'm terrified can't conceal it
Expressing fear, unable to hide or suppress it.
Shaken to the bone below skin
Feeling deeply affected to the core.
Polluted by guilt and my sins
Contaminated by guilt and acknowledging personal wrongdoing.
We all got a date with the grim
Recognizing the inevitability of facing mortality.
Do you know what you will tell him
Pondering on what one would say when confronting death.
Wither away expectations
Repeating the desire to let go of societal expectations.
Throw away my reputation
Reiterating the willingness to discard societal reputation.
Need prayer and meditation
Seeking solace and self-improvement through prayer and meditation.
To stop all my degradation
Desiring an end to personal degradation through spiritual practices.
Wither away expectations
Once again expressing the wish to let go of societal expectations.
Throw away my reputation
Once again reaffirming the willingness to abandon societal reputation.
And chance of accreditation
Renouncing the opportunity for official recognition or approval.
And accept the devastation
Acknowledging and embracing personal devastation.
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