Alone
Redemption in the Abyss: New Years Day's Struggle Unveiled
Lyrics
I'm so bad
I acknowledge my own shortcomings
I've done worse than kill and steal
I've committed actions worse than killing and stealing
I'm so bad
Reiterating my acknowledgment of being flawed
It's getting harder to conceal
It's becoming more challenging to hide my imperfections
I've made these mistakes that I can't make up
I've made irreversible mistakes
So many cuts that I can't sew shut
I have numerous wounds that I cannot heal
(So lets tear them up)
(Let's confront and address these issues)
I'm so bad
Reiteration of destructive behavior
Self-destruct another night
Engaging in self-destructive behavior once again
I'm so bad
Acknowledging the severity of my actions
That even I can't make this right
Expressing doubt in my ability to rectify the situation
Don't wanna be alone
Desire to avoid loneliness
I know I went too deep
Acknowledging going too far in my actions
But at lease I'm not alone
Despite my mistakes, I find solace in not being alone
Try to understand
Pleading for understanding
Breaking is the only way
Breaking down is the only way forward
When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve
When I exhaust all other options
I can't be honest, even with myself
Admitting difficulty in being honest, even with myself
(I've made a mess again)
(Acknowledging a recurring pattern of mistakes)
Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart
Breaking down is the only way to avoid falling apart
It's so wrong
Recognizing the wrongness in depending on someone as a crutch
How I've used you for a crutch
Understanding the negative impact of using someone as support
It's so wrong
Reiterating the wrongness of my actions and loss of trust
I've fucked up and lost your trust
Conveying the severity of my mistakes
Too late for tourniquets and bandages
It's too late for temporary fixes; I'm irreparably damaged
I'm damaged goods and that's the way it is
Acknowledging my damaged state as a permanent condition
Don't wanna be alone
Expressing the desire to avoid loneliness
I know I went too deep
Acknowledging the depth of my mistakes
But at lease I'm not alone
Despite my faults, finding comfort in not being alone
Try to understand
Pleading for understanding once again
Breaking is the only way
Breaking down is the only solution when options run out
When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve
When I exhaust all possibilities
I can't be honest, even with myself
Struggling to be honest, even with myself
(I've made a mess again)
(Recognizing the repetition of making a mess)
Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart
Breaking down is the only way to prevent falling apart
(that I don't fall apart)
(Reiterating the necessity to avoid falling apart)
The bloods is off my hands and that's okay
Blood is no longer on my hands, and I accept that
It's what I thought I wanted but that's changed
Realizing that what I once desired has changed
Don't wanna be alone
Expressing the desire to avoid loneliness
I know I went too deep
Acknowledging the depth of my mistakes
But at lease I'm not alone
Finding comfort in not being alone despite my flaws
Try to understand that I hate the way I am
Expressing self-hatred and a desire for understanding
Breaking is the only way
Breaking down is the only solution when options run out
When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve
When I exhaust all possibilities
I can't be honest, even with myself
Struggling to be honest, even with myself
(I've made a mess again)
(Recognizing the repetition of making a mess)
Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart
Breaking down is the only way to prevent falling apart
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