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I'm in my own prison, guess that will be my creed
I feel confined in my own struggles, and this becomes a defining aspect of who I am.
Books on my shelf that I will never read
I have books symbolizing knowledge that I neglect, possibly reflecting unexplored opportunities or interests.
I had to cut her off, she don't fulfill my needs
I had to end a relationship because it wasn't meeting my emotional or personal needs.
Got too many hustles, I know why I'm fatigued
My numerous endeavors have left me exhausted, and I understand the reason for my fatigue.
See me from a distance but you won't say a word
People observe me from a distance without expressing their thoughts.
But I don't care what your thinking that I can reassure
I'm indifferent to others' opinions and can provide reassurance about not caring.
Try to follow the lines but then they seem to blur
Efforts to follow a certain path or plan become unclear and confusing.
Like wade boggs, on his way to steal third
Reference to Wade Boggs, possibly symbolizing a challenging journey or pursuit.
I can't cook but I still live in the kitchen
Despite not being skilled in domestic tasks, I still navigate through life.
Was sick for a few days tryna fight the addiction.
I struggled with overcoming an addiction, facing difficulties in the process.
Away from family so we can't continue tradition
Separated from family, hindering the continuation of traditional practices.
You say you support the art, but you don't give a listen
Claiming that some supporters don't genuinely engage with the artist's work.
My hearts full but also feels so empty
Experiencing conflicting emotions - a full heart yet a pervasive sense of emptiness.
Hate the feeling that every one is against me
Feeling a sense of opposition from others, creating a negative emotional state.
The way I act, I could probably win me an Emmy
Suggesting that personal actions could be award-worthy, perhaps in a dramatic context.
Try to make waves when I'm 90 just like I'm Betty
Expressing a desire to make an impact even in old age, like the iconic Betty White.
Many nights I stare at the ceiling for hours
Reflecting on numerous nights spent contemplating life and its challenges.
Try to think of pretty things like puppies and flowers
Attempting to focus on positive and beautiful thoughts but struggling due to overwhelming pain.
But the pain overtakes It's got too much power
The pain is powerful and overwhelming, making it challenging to find solace.
But we share that same pain, so we can call it ours
Despite individual struggles, there's a shared pain, suggesting a collective experience.
Who you gonna call when you cry out for help
Pondering who one can turn to in times of distress or need.
I'd go back to old songs but I got new ones on the shelf
Reluctance to revisit past memories (old songs) due to a focus on creating new ones.
Drives alone just so I can figure out myself
Driving alone as a means of self-discovery and reflection.
Lost again, feels like I'm swimming through the kelp
Feeling lost, akin to navigating through challenging underwater obstacles (kelp).
Pit in my stomach I could use a warm meal
Expressing a physical hunger, symbolizing a need for comfort and sustenance.
Carry the weight on my back, I feel like I'm Brad Beal
Carrying a heavy burden on one's shoulders, drawing a parallel to the basketball player Brad Beal.
There's some scars in my life that I wish could heal
Reflecting on enduring emotional wounds that wish could heal.
Gotta be strong for others, need to keep it concealed
The need to maintain a facade of strength for the sake of others.
Life on auto go through the motions for days
Life feels automated, going through routine motions without a clear sense of purpose.
Feels like a foggy night, the way I struggle through the haze
Life's challenges are compared to navigating through a foggy night, struggling through confusion.
Started to hate school I couldn't finish essays
Developing a dislike for the educational system, struggling with academic tasks.
Too many thoughts stuck behind my empty gaze
Feeling mentally stuck, with thoughts trapped behind an empty gaze.
I need a change, to stop this cycle I'm in
Expressing a need for change to break free from a repetitive and unfulfilling cycle.
Before I place my dreams in a fucking trash bin
Prioritizing personal dreams and goals before they are discarded or ignored.
Yeah I'll take some losses gotta take em to the chin
Accepting losses as part of the journey and facing them with resilience.
And stay up, before I get stuck in some gin
Commitment to staying vigilant and active to avoid getting trapped in negative habits like excessive drinking.
Many nights I stare at the ceiling for hours
Repetition of the theme of contemplation during sleepless nights.
Try to think of pretty things like puppies and flowers
Struggling to focus on positive thoughts, symbolized by puppies and flowers, due to overpowering pain.
But the pain overtakes It's got too much power
The pain remains dominant, emphasizing its strength and impact on the individual.
But we share that same pain, so we can call it ours
Despite individual struggles, there's a shared pain, suggesting a collective experience (repeated theme).
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