Lyrics
Oh I'm a mess
Expressing feeling disorganized or emotionally unsettled
And though I wanna blame you
Wanting to hold someone else responsible but admitting a personal truth
I must confess
Admitting honesty despite the desire to blame
That I was this way before
Acknowledging existing personal issues before the relationship
You ever set foot on the floor
Implying a sense of being troubled before the other's involvement
That I
Continuing a self-reflection
Now find myself
Describing being alone without company
Laying alone all by myself
Emphasizing isolation and solitude
Looking at the ceiling
Contemplating while staring at the ceiling
Wholeheartedly believing
Wholeheartedly believing something, likely about unchangeable emotions
That I could never change your feelings
Doubting the possibility of altering someone's feelings
And yet
Continuing with self-reflection
I
Reiterating actions that occurred
Showed
Repeating an action or behavior
Up at your front door
Describing a previous action at someone's doorstep
Last night when I
Describing the state of being drunk and slightly optimistic
Was drunk and a little bit hopeful that
Hoping for a specific reaction
You'd
Expecting a particular response
Open the door without me knocking
Desiring an open and welcoming reception
And say that you'd been
Imagining someone waiting eagerly
Waiting for me
Expecting someone to change their perspective
To come around
Repetition for emphasis on the desire for change in someone else's feelings
Come around
-Come around
-Come around
-To come around
-Come around
-Come around
-Come around
-Oh to possess
Yearning for personal strength
The strength I need
Needing resilience to adhere to rational thoughts
To adhere to the sense
Following a sense of finality in the relationship
That tells me
Recognizing the end of something
That it's over
Acknowledging a definite conclusion
Not another brief layover
Rejecting the idea of another temporary reunion
Paired by
Linked with words unable to express confidently
Words that I can't
Referencing an inability to communicate with certainty
Say to you with confidence
Anticipating a future change but presently stuck in the cycle
One day I'll change the tide
Hoping for a shift in circumstances eventually
But until we reach that time
Anticipating a future change but presently stuck in the cycle
At 3 AM I come alive
Feeling alive at an odd hour, possibly linked to distress or longing
I
Repetition of past actions with a hint of optimism despite doubt
Showed
-Up at your front door
-Last night when I
-Was drunk and a little bit hopeful that
-You'd
-Open the door without me knocking
-And say that you'd been
-Waiting for me
-To come around
-I know it's all just wishful thinking
-Ohhhh woah
-But you're the reason that I'm drinking
-Ohhhh woah
-If you could just promise me one thing
-Ohhhh woah
-Can you please say
-That you'll never forget me?
-Never forget me
-Please say you'll never forget me
-Never forget me
-I'm afraid that you'll forget me
-You'll forget me
-Can you please never forget me?
-Never forget me
-Ohhh woah
-I
-Showed
-Up at your front door
-Last night when I
-Was drunk and a little bit hopeful that
-You'd
-Open the door without me knocking
-And say that you'd been
-Waiting for me
-To come around
-Come around
Repetition emphasizing waiting and anticipation for change
Come around
-Come around
-Waiting for me
-To come around
-Come around
-Come around
-Come around
-Waiting for me
Reinforcing the previous line's theme of anticipation and waiting
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