Only in My Head
Echoes of Despair: Noah Benjamin's Melodic Revelation
Lyrics
Well on the threshold of death, I drew my last breath
Approaching death, taking the final breath.
Pulled on my gloves, and tightened my boots
Preparing for a challenge, gearing up.
Just stared to the air
Reflecting on anticipation or waiting.
For something that was supposed to be coming
Waiting for something expected.
And when it came late, I loaded my plate
When the awaited thing arrives late, preparing for action.
With bullets and fish, Lit my last cigarette
Combining conflicting elements like bullets and fish.
Surprised, it arrived
Surprised by the arrival but unable to fully embrace it.
But I was too full for consumption
Unable to consume or accept what has arrived.
I had a lead-pipe nightmare of a steel-eyed vixen
Having a disturbing dream or vision of a fierce woman.
She looked at me stupid, said You got nothing I need
Encountering rejection from the envisioned woman.
Move along little pilgrim, you know there’s no rest for the wicked
Being urged to keep moving forward despite challenges.
I had the same ol’ nightmare, of the same ol’ vixen
Recurring nightmares of the same woman.
With that same ol’ stupid grin as she started to bleed
The woman, despite a grin, meets a violent end.
Tipped her hat to the beast, turned
Acknowledging a mysterious entity and nature.
And lit up the trees
Creating illumination or revelation.
And if it’s only in my head
Questioning the reality of experiences.
if it’s only in my head
Repeating uncertainty about reality.
I could shed it off like skin
Expressing the ability to discard burdens.
I could shed it off like skin
Reiterating the capability to shed troubles.
And I for one, I’ve got no regrets
Claiming no regrets despite experiences.
Oh No, no, I guess I saw it coming
Acknowledging foresight of challenges.
The skin I wear can’t cool me, from the fire I’m standing in
The protective layer doesn't shield from challenges.
And I can’t win for losing; I might as well be dead
Feeling defeated, with a sense of inevitability.
But I know it’s a dream; And dreams don’t kill
Acknowledging the dreamlike nature of challenges.
But it feels so real
Despite being a dream, challenges feel real.
Would somebody tell me who put this poison in my head
Seeking the source of mental distress.
Well the clocks on my wall, they’ve all up and died
Clocks symbolize the end of time, emphasizing despair.
That’s ok, time was never on my side
Accepting that time is not on one's side.
And I’m counting the seconds now, for all hell to break loose
Anticipating chaos or a drastic change.
Because the devil, she don’t want me. And Jesus don’t approve
Feeling rejected by both evil and divine forces.
So do your best to haunt me, I’ve got nothing left to lose
Inviting challenges as there's nothing to lose.
I’ve been pushed to the edge and now I’m waiting for the ground to break
Being on the edge, awaiting a significant event.
And if it’s only in my head
Repeating the theme of questioning reality.
if it’s only in my head
Reiterating uncertainty about reality.
I could shed it off like skin
Expressing the ability to discard burdens.
I could shed it off like skin
Reiterating the capability to shed troubles.
And I for one, I’ve got no regrets
Claiming no regrets despite experiences.
No No, no, I guess I saw it coming
Denying regret despite foreseeing challenges.
If its only in my head
Repeating uncertainty about reality.
If its only in my head
-If its only in my head
-If its only in my head
-If its only in my head
-If its only in my head
-I guess I saw it coming
Acknowledging foresight of challenges.
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