Starry Eyed Fuck
Lonely Stars and Lost Love: Noah Nolastname's Emotional Journey
Lyrics
I’m just another lonely star I was probably born in Dallas
I feel like an insignificant, lonely person, possibly born in Dallas.
I’m sorry you always seem to catch me while I’m at my most callous
I apologize for being insensitive when you always catch me at my worst.
I just wanna apologize, all the bullshit all the lies
Expressing regret for past mistakes and dishonesty.
I probably sound just like my folks, but I wish you loved me more than your phone
Comparing self-talk to parents, wishing for more attention than given to the phone.
I wish you’d take a break from getting stoned
Desiring a break from substance use and silly humor.
And making stupid jokes I’ll die alone
Feeling the possibility of dying alone due to life choices.
Baby I’m just going through the motions, uh huh
Acknowledging a lack of genuine emotion, going through motions.
And maybe I’m just causing a commotion, oh no
Possibly causing disturbance or chaos in relationships.
But I wonder if you also feel something’s gone
Questioning if the partner also senses something is amiss.
Yes I wonder if you also feel something’s gone
Reiterating the doubt about the relationship's state.
It’s a regular Thursday writing love songs about a girl I’ve never met
Typical Thursday spent writing love songs about an imaginary girl.
Good thing you can’t read my handwriting or you would’ve already left
Thankful that handwriting hides emotions that might drive someone away.
My cat and I take the same medication for our anxiety (No joke)
Sharing a humorous note about shared anxiety medication with a cat.
I probably sound just like my folks, but I wish you loved me more than your phone
Repeating the desire for more attention than the partner's phone.
I wish you’d take a break from getting stoned
Expressing the wish for the partner to abstain from substance use.
And making stupid jokes I’ll die alone
Reiterating the fear of dying alone due to current lifestyle.
Baby I’m just going through the motions, uh huh
Emphasizing the feeling of going through motions without true emotion.
And maybe I’m just causing a commotion, oh no
Suspecting personal actions may be causing disturbance in the relationship.
But I wonder if you also feel something’s gone
Repeating the doubt about the partner sensing something wrong.
Yes I wonder if you also feel something’s gone
Reiterating the uncertainty about the relationship's status.
Every night I dry swallow three pills before I go to bed
Describing a nightly routine of taking pills to cope with insomnia and thoughts of the partner.
One for my insomnia, the other two to get you out of my head
Using medication as a coping mechanism to forget about the partner.
Cigarettes under my floor board
Questioning the presence of cigarettes under the floorboards.
How’d the hell they get there
Expressing confusion about the origin of the hidden cigarettes.
In my room and under the stairs
Noting the unusual placement of cigarettes in the room.
All my therapist wants to talk about is herself
Reflecting on the therapist's focus on herself during sessions.
She keeps sending me articles on how vaping's getting bad for my health
Mentioning the therapist's concern about the health effects of vaping.
It took me about three years to process the death of my dog
Reflecting on the time taken to process the death of a pet dog.
I know you’re in a much better place
Expressing belief that the deceased dog is in a better place.
But I still wish I could see your face
Expressing a longing to see the dog's face again.
The way your eyes got all big
Recalling specific details about the dog's eyes and tail.
Or how your little tail used to shake
Expressing nostalgia for the dog's tail shaking.
Macy I miss you but I know that you’re well
Mentioning missing the dog but hoping it is in a good place.
I can’t wait to see you in heaven
Anticipating a reunion with the dog in heaven.
Does your collar still have that little bell
Asking about the presence of a bell on the dog's collar.
And I wonder where I’d be if you’d never left
Wondering about the potential impact of the dog's departure on the speaker's life.
Yes I wonder where I’d be if you’d never left
Reiterating the contemplation of life without the departed dog.
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