Lyrics
My anxiety is taking over
Expressing the dominance of anxiety in the speaker's life.
I don't think anybody likes me when I am sober
Feeling unliked when sober, suggesting a preference for being under the influence.
I can't keep carrying the weight this world has on my shoulders
Struggling under the burdens of the world, metaphorically carried on the speaker's shoulders.
There's a hundred million things I wish I never told ya
Regret over revealing too much; a desire to undo past confessions.
Sometimes I think it would be better if I never known ya
Contemplating whether life would be better without certain relationships or knowledge.
God given battles but I'm not one of his strongest soldiers
Recognizing personal weaknesses in the face of life's challenges and battles.
I see them lurking they tryna replicate my persona
Awareness of imitators trying to copy the speaker's persona or lifestyle.
Waking up to a stack my money folgers
Waking up to financial success, possibly indicating materialism.
I put too many first and I always end up the loner
Putting others first but ending up alone; a pattern of self-sacrifice.
Looking over my shoulders
A sense of constant vigilance and fear of potential threats.
Time isn't stopping, don't want to get any older
Desire to halt the progression of time, fearing the effects of aging.
It's getting too hard to focus
Difficulty concentrating or dealing with challenges.
Moving with no emotion
Moving through life without genuine emotional engagement.
They'll start to take notice
Anticipating that others will eventually notice the speaker's struggles.
When I'm gone, oh I'm gone
Foreseeing a future state of absence or departure.
No I ain't perfect
Acknowledging imperfections but asserting personal value.
But swear I'm worth it
Claiming worthiness despite past challenges and doubts.
There's been too many times I've heard that this just isn't working
Recounting instances where efforts seem futile in relationships.
I've always stuck around even though I'm the that's hurting
Remaining committed despite personal pain and suffering.
I can't tell 'em how I feel but have to stay observant
Unable to express emotions openly but staying vigilant in a potentially deceitful environment.
In a room full of serpents
Navigating a space filled with deceptive individuals.
Finding my purpose
Searching for one's purpose amidst challenges.
I think that it's ironic that I have been blessed with these curses
Reflecting on the irony of being blessed with difficulties.
In love with the paper I like the sound of purchase
Expressing a love for material success, particularly the act of purchasing.
They see what music put on me but this comes from under the surface
Highlighting that personal struggles go beyond what's visible on the surface.
This shit is unreal
Describing a surreal or unbelievable aspect of the speaker's experiences.
Sometimes I'm scared to tell you how just I feel
Fear of sharing genuine feelings due to potential negative consequences.
Fuck around and catch this concealed
Avoiding confrontation or revealing concealed emotions.
Money bags around my body I'm healed
Suggesting financial security as a healing or protective factor.
I put too many first and I always end up the loner
Reiteration of sacrificing personal needs for others and ending up isolated.
Looking over my shoulders
Continued vigilance and anxiety about potential threats.
Time isn't stopping, don't want to get any older
Desire to freeze time to avoid the challenges associated with aging.
It's getting too hard to focus
Struggling with concentration and focus on personal goals.
Moving with no emotion
Moving through life without genuine emotional engagement.
They'll start to take notice
Anticipating that others will eventually notice the speaker's struggles.
When I'm gone, oh I'm gone
Foreseeing a future state of absence or departure.
Give me time, ay
Requesting time to work on personal growth and improvement.
Take my time with it
Emphasizing the need for patience in the process of self-improvement.
I've been working on myself just give me time with it
Expressing dedication to personal development despite limitations.
Running out of minutes
Sensing a limited time frame for personal growth or change.
Don't forget me when I'm gone
A plea not to be forgotten after departing or changing.
When I'm gone
Reiterating the anticipation of departure or absence.
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