Lyrics
Fear, I've always felt it, never made it clear
Fear has been a constant emotion for me, but I've never expressed it openly.
Crunched inside the bus, I wrote em' raps up in the rear
While confined in a bus, I spent my time writing rap lyrics at the back.
I've been the highest in the room, felt like I wasn't even here
Despite being in a high state, I felt detached and invisible.
I was smoking, drinking, conscious slipping down into that beer
My consciousness was slipping away as I engaged in smoking and drinking.
I be always switching spots, always shifting gears
I frequently change locations and adapt to new situations.
Always asking where the hell is heaven on this mighty hemisphere
I often wonder about the existence of heaven on this vast earth.
Why God do you choose to make me suffer
I question why God subjects me to suffering.
The priests told us white lies one another
Religious figures misled us by telling untruths to each other.
Money is a double-edged sword
Money has its advantages and disadvantages.
Seen people buying more than they could afford
I've witnessed people overspending beyond their means.
Same people on the streets that be praying to the Lord
Individuals who pray also face financial struggles.
With the same loan sharks left em' rotting on the floor
Loan sharks prey on the same people they lend money to, leaving them in dire circumstances.
All this green got me feeling real hazy
The abundance of money makes me feel mentally unclear.
Seen so many crazy bitches that'll always hate me
I've encountered numerous unstable individuals who harbor perpetual animosity towards me.
Knowing I keep pushing with whatever I bring
Despite obstacles, I persist with whatever I bring forth.
But a push is enough to make my soul cling
However, even a slight push or setback affects my soul deeply.
A fool's delusion, ill illusions, filled with filtered lies
The delusions of a fool are rife with distorted perceptions and lies.
Judas making alibis, deceiving to the afterlife
Those who betray, like Judas, create excuses and deceive others even in the afterlife.
Lucy wanna sacrifice my heart and tongue, there ain't no chance
A reference to temptation and a desire to manipulate me, but I won't succumb.
Rappers want the smoke, indulge in dope, until they lungs can't expand
Many rappers seek conflict and indulge in drugs until they harm themselves.
I seen em' grand mansions, on demand
I've witnessed lavish mansions that can be summoned at will.
My time is slowly sinking to the depths of the sand
My time is slowly slipping away, akin to sand falling into depths.
God better pray for my soul, I need the strength
I pray to God for strength to safeguard my soul.
Otherwise I'll faint into the hands of a-
The verse ends abruptly, suggesting an impending danger or a personal fear.
All my friends really want me to change
My friends urge me to change who I am.
Yeah, these punchlines make a man forget his name
The power of impactful lines in music can lead to a loss of personal identity.
Was there a lesson when he fired off his weapon
Reflecting on whether a violent act had any underlying lesson or purpose.
The answers to that question lives inside the skies of-
The answer to that question remains unknown and distant, much like the sky.
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