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she cocks her head to the right
Expresses the physical gesture of tilting her head to the right.
for the last time tonight
Suggests that this action is the final occurrence of the night.
then she presses delete
Implies the act of deleting or removing something, possibly from her thoughts or life.
the swill and the pill makes it fast
Refers to the combination of alcohol ("swill") and medication ("pill") for a quick effect.
but she won't make it last
Contrasts the rapidity of the substance's impact with its inability to provide a lasting solution.
that's the trouble with sleep
Highlights the inherent issue with relying on sleep to escape problems.
'cause waking up and feeling the weight
Describes the sensation of waking up burdened, as if the blankets themselves are heavy like slate.
like the blankets are slate
Continues the metaphor of heavy blankets, emphasizing the weight of emotional struggles.
she wonders why'm i even trying
Questions the purpose of persevering through difficulties, indicating a sense of futility.
she spends half the day getting clean
Details a significant portion of her day spent on personal hygiene, possibly as a coping mechanism.
thinking people are mean
Suggests a perception that people are unkind, contributing to her emotional state.
watching old movies and crying
Describes an activity of watching old movies and crying, possibly as a way to release emotions.
all i wanna wake up and see
Expresses a desire to wake up to a positive interaction, such as someone smiling at her.
is somebody smiling at me
Reiterates the longing for a positive connection upon waking.
then what i might do
Speculates on her potential action if greeted with kindness, suggesting the idea of reciprocal smiling.
is remember to smile at you
Further emphasizes the possibility of returning a smile to the person who smiles at her.
all i wanna walk out and see
Expresses the desire to see someone smiling when she walks out, indicating a wish for positivity in her environment.
is somebody smiling at me
Reiterates the wish for a positive encounter upon leaving a place.
then what i might do
Reflects on the potential response of smiling back if greeted with kindness.
is remember to smile at you
Reiterates the idea of reciprocating a smile, connecting back to the earlier expressions of longing for positive interactions.
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