Lyrics
I came home low, energy field
I returned home with low energy, feeling depleted.
It's me, you, and everyone else
The situation involves not just me but also everyone else.
And I guess it's a blessing to feel
Feeling emotions is considered a blessing.
Sometimes I can't stomach myself
At times, I find it hard to accept or tolerate myself.
Head low, and I'm digging my heels
Feeling down, and I'm resisting moving forward.
It's real, I don't do it just to get a reaction
My actions are genuine, not for seeking reactions.
Getting sick of this misery feel
Tired of the persistent feeling of misery.
So I'm smoking on vanilla and plastic
Using substances like vanilla and plastic to cope.
Look back on memory hill
Reflecting on past experiences with nostalgia.
When you told me that this healing's gon' hurt me
Recalling being told that healing can be painful.
I'm working the feeling I hope that you know that you're worth it
Struggling with emotions, hoping the listener knows their worth.
But I just don't think I deserve it
Expressing doubt about deserving the positive feelings.
Datura in the backyard
Mentioning a plant, Datura, in the backyard.
I remember you was walking me past it
Recalling a moment when someone walked past the Datura.
But I guess it wasn't that hard
Realizing that the past may not have been as difficult as perceived.
And I wish I could've said it was tragic
Expressing a wish to have described the past as tragic.
Too young for this old soul, fools gold
Feeling too young for a mature perspective, fooled by illusions.
Never know till I walk down that road
Understanding only through personal experience.
You embossed in my soul, now I'm lost on my own
A significant influence embedded in the soul, feeling lost.
Got my mind blown when I'm moving time zones
Experiencing a shift in perception across different time zones.
I wanna grow through the silence in my home
Expressing a desire to grow despite the silence at home.
How the fuck should I know? I don't try though
Uncertain about the future and unwilling to make an effort.
And I need me some Murciélago
Expressing a need for a luxury car, Murciélago.
Cause this shit too fast for me, fast for me, I know
Feeling overwhelmed by the fast-paced nature of life.
Catch up to you baby if I can
Attempting to catch up to someone but facing challenges.
But I'm tripping on it, I don't understand
Confusion and lack of understanding about the situation.
Playing victim on it, here we go again
Assuming a victim role in the situation, experiencing repetition.
And I guess I thought it'd make me be the man
Believing that facing challenges will make one more mature.
Catch up to you baby if I can
Reiterating the desire to catch up but facing internal struggles.
But I'm tripping on it, I don't understand
Continuing to grapple with confusion and lack of comprehension.
Playing victim on it, here we go again
Repeating a cycle of playing the victim in challenging situations.
And I guess I thought it'd make me be the man
Believing that facing challenges will lead to personal growth.
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