Lyrics
I look at pictures of myself, but I can't see who I am.
I struggle to recognize myself in photos.
I see a mud stain on my white T-shirt and a blood stain on my hand.
Physical stains symbolize struggles or hardships I carry.
I'm a fighter, I'm a lover, but I don't know where I stand.
I'm uncertain about my identity and where I belong.
Somewhere between bad and good I'm a not so simple man.
I exist in a complex space between good and bad.
When you look in my direction do you see through my disguise,
Wondering if others perceive beyond my facade.
Do you see all the good I've done,
Questioning if others notice my positive actions.
Do you see pain in my eyes?
Wondering if others see my pain reflected in my eyes.
I just wanna see myself,
Desire to understand and accept myself.
I just wanna realize,
Wanting to comprehend my reality and experiences.
I just wanna hold this photograph and see smiles without the cries.
Longing to see happiness in memories captured in photos.
So I'm standing on the world and I'm holding on to mine.
Feeling like I'm navigating life's challenges.
I got nothing in my pocket but I'm working overtime.
I'm working hard despite having little material wealth.
So if I'm stranded on the road, and I'm searching out to find.
Searching for direction while facing obstacles.
I'm standing on the world and I'm holding on to mine.
A repetition emphasizing holding onto my world.
I never listen to the critics, I'm living without a limit.
Living life on my terms, disregarding critics.
I'm doing just how I wanted that picture is now a goner.
Choices made freely now change my past self-portrait.
My honor is only stronger from the pain that I've slaughtered.
My integrity strengthens through endured pain.
I wrote it down inside a notebook and I sold it for a dollar.
Turning pain into something valuable.
I can never take back.
Funny how it all plays back to that old dirt track where I had my first kiss and I made a fist pack.
Reflecting on a significant past moment.
For the future of myself that would knock me on my ass.
A moment that shaped my future experiences.
Now I'm singing for the moment, living for the day, trying to make a living so my son ain't left afraid.
Determined to live in the present for family's well-being.
Momma's at home and her bills are all paid.
Relief that family's financial obligations are met.
My girl ain't at her job making minimum wage,
Happy that loved ones aren't struggling financially.
And I can finally take a breath look my father in the eyes,
Being able to confront challenges and look others in the eye.
And my brother's super proud, got my sister's in my life.
Proud of familial support and presence.
I can never complain again.
Acknowledging a sense of gratitude and contentment.
I can never complain again.
Reiterating the acknowledgment of contentment.
So I'm standing on the world and I'm holding on to mine.
Continuing to face life's challenges.
I got nothing in my pocket but I'm working overtime.
Struggling but persisting with hard work.
So if I'm stranded on the road, and I'm searching out to find.
Seeking direction in difficult situations.
I'm standing on the world and I'm holding on to mine.
Re-emphasizing holding onto my world.
So I'm standing on the world and I'm holding on to mine.
Reiterating the theme of resilience and perseverance.
I got nothing in my pocket but I'm working overtime.
Despite lacking materially, I'm dedicated to hard work.
So if I'm stranded on the road, and I'm searching out to find.
Seeking guidance when faced with uncertainties.
I'm standing on the world and I'm holding on to mine.
Reaffirming the determination to hold onto my world.
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