Lyrics
Amidst all the whores and fiends
Amidst a chaotic environment of immoral individuals and addicts
I misplaced my solemnity
I lost my sense of seriousness or gravity
Last but not least on a long
Referring to the narrator being the last, but not least, on a list of life's casualties
List in life of casualties
Expressing the narrator's place among the unfortunate events in life
I walked back and forth retracing my steps
Walking back and forth, retracing steps to understand past actions
Where I'd been and who I'd seen
Reflecting on where the narrator has been and the people encountered
Through an open door into an empty bed
Entering an empty bed through an open door, possibly symbolizing emptiness or solitude
To my hands and knees
Falling to hands and knees, expressing vulnerability or a state of desperation
Looking for some kind of a sign
Searching for a sign or meaning in the situation
A deadly disease or a homeless man
Mentioning the possibility of encountering a deadly disease or a destitute person
Who knows my friends by name
Describing a person who recognizes the narrator's friends by name
The sound of sirens and heartache
Noting the presence of emergency services and emotional pain
Can be heard in the distance from where I lay
Implying the distant presence of suffering and distress through sirens and heartache
Stretched out, the only child of Aergia
Identifying the narrator as the only child of Aergia, possibly a personification of apathy or inertia
In the room, rubble and ruins
Describing a room filled with debris and destruction
If I lie still long enough
Contemplating lying still in the wreckage
For my heart to stop
Pondering whether stopping the heart will lead to finding what has been lost
Will I find what I'd lost?
Questioning if a state of stillness or death will bring resolution to the narrator's losses
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