Lyrics
It’s been five years
Reflecting on a five-year period
Struggling with fear
Dealing with persistent fear
Coming out of the darkness now
Emerging from a dark phase
The images are flashing
Recalling vivid mental images
The world around me crashes
Feeling the collapse of the world
I feel the cold and all is gone
Sensing a cold emptiness
And it, hurts to remember
Experiencing emotional pain remembering
And lord knows I’ve tried
Expressing attempts to move on
I’m not, I’m not so angry anymore
Acknowledging reduced anger
But I just miss
Longing for past enjoyable moments
The good times that we surely had
Recalling positive experiences
I’m not, I’m just thankful for all that I have now
Gratitude for current blessings
This cold blue morning
Describing a melancholic morning
The silence of the snow
Noting the quietness of snow
I can’t remember, what I don’t recall
Difficulty recalling certain memories
And if by missing you I
Suggesting loss through missing
Was only lost forgetting
Failing to unlock inner emotional doors
To unlock the doors inside my head
Expressing a sense of being deceived
And I feel so cheated
Feeling a sense of betrayal
Cuz I never heard your cries
Regret for not hearing cries
I’m not, I’m not so angry anymore
Continuing reduction of anger
But I just miss
Yearning for past joyful times
The good times that we surely had
Thankfulness for present blessings
I’m not, I’m just thankful for all that I have now
Repeating gratitude for the present
The nightmares, the nightmares
Referencing recurring nightmares
Consuming me like waves over the bow of a sinking ship
Symbolizing internal struggles
Before I slip
Awareness of a potential downward spiral
Catch me now
Plea for intervention or support
Save me now
Seeking help and salvation
Cuz lord knows you’ve tried
Acknowledging past efforts to help
I’m not, I'm not so angry anymore
Further reduction of anger
But I still miss
Persistent longing for past joy
The good times that we surely had
Continued gratitude for the present
I’m not, I’m just thankful for all that I have now
Reiterating thankfulness for the present
It’s been five years
Revisiting the five-year timeframe
Living with these fears
Living with enduring fears
Just coming out of the darkness now
Reemerging from a dark period
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