My Medication
Thrill and Turmoil: Embracing the Chaos of My Medication by Papa Roach
Lyrics
I push you away until you beg me to stay
I distance myself from you until you plead for me to stay
Just for the thrill of the chase, you got me
Engaging in the pursuit just for the excitement, you captivate me
Fucked in the head from all the things that we did
Mentally disturbed due to the actions we've undertaken
But I will never forget I need you, my medication
Despite the negative consequences, I can't forget that I rely on you, like medication
Have you ever had enough of it
Have you ever had enough of a situation?
Straight over it, sick of it, can't get ahold of it
Completely done with it, fed up, unable to control it
Like a drug I need another fix
Similar to a drug, I need another dose or experience
I'm a moth to a flame and I'll burn for the hell of it
I'm drawn to danger, willing to suffer for the thrill of it
Battle scar 'cause I lost the fight
Carrying emotional wounds from losing battles
Every time I take a breath it's like I'm losing my life
Every breath feels like a loss of life
Fuck it, why am I so dysfunctional?
Expressing frustration about personal dysfunction
So irrational?
Feeling irrational and confused
I don't know what to do
Uncertain about how to handle the situation
So I push you away until you beg me to stay
I distance myself until you insist on staying
Just for the thrill of the chase, you got me intoxicated
For the excitement of pursuit, you have me under the influence
Fucked in the head from all the things that we did
Mentally disturbed from our shared experiences
But I will never forget I need you, my medication
Despite the negatives, I can't forget I need you like medication
Are you living with the enemy?
Living alongside something that feels adversarial
Are you affected by the devils that are tryna be a friend of me?
Being influenced by negative forces posing as friends
I'm in a place that I don't wanna be
In an undesirable situation
But if I find a way to turn it all around would you follow me?
If I find a way to change, would you come with me?
I'm alive but I lost the fight
Alive but feeling defeated
It's like the better half of me is on the edge of the knife
A sense of inner conflict, like living on the edge
Cut it
An abrupt decision to cut off something
Why am I so emotional?
Questioning intense emotions
Uncontrollable?
Feelings are overwhelming and uncontrollable
I don't know what to do
Uncertain about how to handle the emotional turmoil
So I push you away until you beg me to stay
I distance myself until you insist on staying
Just for the thrill of the chase, you got me intoxicated
For the excitement of pursuit, you have me under the influence
Fucked in the head from all the things that we did
Mentally disturbed from our shared experiences
But I will never forget I need you, my medication
Despite the negatives, I can't forget I need you like medication
I push you away until you beg me to stay
I distance myself until you insist on staying
Just for the thrill of the chase, you got me
For the excitement of pursuit, you have me
Fucked in the head from all the things that we did
Mentally disturbed from our shared experiences
But I will never forget I need you, my medication
Despite the negatives, I can't forget I need you like medication
My medication
Emphasizing the reliance on the person or situation as essential, like medication
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