Lyrics
I was getting tired of a hurting heart
Feeling tired of emotional pain
Crying to sleep wasn't getting far
Unsuccessful attempts to find solace through sleep
So I decided to write some songs
Turning to songwriting as a coping mechanism
I don't know why I thought life would be easy
Expressing confusion about the expectation of an easy life
Not sure why she tries so hard to please me
Questioning why someone makes an effort to please
When we both know that I belong in hell
Acknowledging a sense of deserving negative consequences
I've never been one to admit when I'm wrong
Admitting difficulty in acknowledging personal mistakes
I never thought I'd be writing sad songs
Surprised by the unexpected act of writing sad songs
And here I am, doing it all at once
Reflecting on the suddenness of engaging in songwriting
My friends told me I couldn't sing
Recalling discouragement from friends about singing ability
Well, look at them and then listen to me
Defending musical talent despite others' opinions
Damn
Expressing frustration or resignation
I guess they were kind of right
Admitting some truth in friends' criticism
I don't wanna feel this way
Rejecting the desire to feel a certain negative way
Alone, afraid, not wanting to be alive
Describing feelings of loneliness, fear, and a desire to avoid life
And if I had it my way, I'd see
Expressing a wish for significant life changes
Just a really big change in my life
Longing for a positive transformation in life
Tried so hard to get what I needed
Struggling to meet personal needs despite efforts
Still ended up crying on my knees
Experiencing emotional pain despite attempts to fulfill needs
And if God is here, why can't I see Him
Questioning the presence of God in times of distress
Thank you for listening to this
Expressing gratitude for the audience's attention
Already doing more than my friends
Feeling that sharing through music surpasses friends' support
I hide my face because I'm so afraid of them
Concealing oneself due to fear of judgment
I don't wanna feel this way
Reiterating the rejection of negative emotions
Alone, afraid, not wanting to be alive
Repeating feelings of loneliness, fear, and a desire to avoid life
And if I had it my way, I'd see
Reiterating a wish for significant life changes
Just a really big change in my life
Repeating the longing for positive transformation in life
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