Lyrics
Started smoking again last Halloween
Reflecting on a resumption of smoking since the past Halloween.
More than I would ever let you see
Acknowledging a hidden, more intense side not openly revealed to others.
Still killing that last part of me
Continuing to destroy a lingering aspect of oneself.
Every day's a nightmare
Describing life as a continuous nightmarish experience.
My nightmares been just a daydream
Contrasting the reality of nightmares with the wishful nature of daydreams.
And I don't know what I'm feeling
Expressing uncertainty about emotions or emotional states.
Think back midsummer evenings
Recalling past summer evenings and pondering emotions.
Like 2012, when Jesse said, at least you know yourself
Referencing a conversation in 2012 where someone emphasized self-awareness.
Losing all my friends, I pushed them all back up on the shelf
Regretting the alienation of friends, pushing them away.
Now all my skin is peeling
Metaphorically describing a personal transformation or shedding of identity.
Cigarettes stained popcorn ceilings
Linking cigarettes to memories and observing stained ceilings.
Hope he's doing well, last I heard he moved down south to somewhere else
Mentioning someone named Jesse and their relocation, expressing hope for their well-being.
I've been playing bar bands
Engaging in performances at local bars.
Watching shows on Charlie Chaplin
Enjoying entertainment, specifically Charlie Chaplin shows.
And I've got burns on both of my hands
Physically marked by burns on hands, possibly symbolizing struggles.
I can barely, barely, oh I can barely stand
Struggling to stand, suggesting emotional or physical fatigue.
I don't know what I'm feeling
Reiterating confusion about emotional states.
Think back midsummer evenings
Recalling past summer evenings again, contemplating emotions.
Like 2012, when Jesse said, at least you know yourself
Referencing Jesse's advice on self-awareness once more.
Losing all my friends, I pushed them all back up on the shelf
Expressing regret for distancing and losing friends.
Now all my skin is peeling
Continuing the metaphor of personal transformation or change.
Cigarettes stained popcorn ceilings
Describing the lasting impact of smoking with stained ceilings.
Hope he's doing well, last I heard he moved down south to somewhere else
Expressing continued concern for Jesse's well-being after relocation.
I'll never see his face again
Acknowledging the impossibility of seeing someone's face again.
Staring out at the state that I've been stuck in
Contemplating the current challenging situation or emotional state.
And I'll never see his face again
Reiterating the inability to see the mentioned person's face again.
Staring out at the state that I've been stuck in
Reflecting on the prolonged and challenging state the narrator finds themselves in.
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