Lyrics
Beckon second upsetting tongue twist
Expressing a desire for a challenging and intriguing conversation
Phonetically my things were okay
Initially, everything sounded fine when pronounced correctly
'Til something went down and here I am expected to stay
An unexpected event occurred, and now there's an obligation to remain
'Cause now I'm caught in different dimensions and tensions
Caught in different situations and emotions
As we lose the sparkle and shine
Experiencing a loss of enthusiasm and brilliance
That I
Emphasizing personal involvement or possession
Well I saw them taking it from you when it
Witnessing someone taking away what was once yours
happened to be mine
Reflecting on the loss and the impact it had
But now I'm
Transitioning to a new phase or mindset
Goin' out tonight now I'm going out mad
Expressing a determination to go out while feeling angry
Staying in tonight now I'm staying in sad
Choosing to stay in with a sense of sadness
But slowly I'm glad that I am
Slowly finding contentment with the current state
Going out tonight now I'm going out tough
Deciding to go out with a tough attitude
Staying in tonight now I'm staying in love
Opting to stay in with a focus on love
And I will erupt if I'm not on stuff
Expressing potential explosive emotions if not under the influence
By ten past eight, my pupils dilate
Physical reaction to substances with dilated pupils
We live like before two thousand and eight
Reference to life before a significant year, possibly 2008
If I'm not around then I'm still a cunt
Self-awareness and acknowledgment of negative traits
And if I'm asleep
Acknowledging potential unconscious actions while asleep
Well then you get up shining lavender and offering a prayer
Imagery of awakening with positive feelings and prayer
I'm mostly playing, but I forget just what you said right there
Playfully engaging in conversation but forgetting details
But I think it went
Uncertain recollection of a previous statement
Well sleep is a mystery and the sun will explode
Reflecting on the mysteries of sleep and the future
I might be tweaking but I'm speaking in all honesty though
Admitting potential influence but speaking honestly
That the highest award for reporters
Commenting on the risks and dangers faced by reporters
is getting killed by the CIA
Highlighting a dark irony in journalistic recognition
As the assassins all grouped in a corner shouting
Depicting a chaotic scene with references to drugs
"marmaduke, more cocaine"
Chaos in a scenario involving substance use
And now we're
Reiteration of the decision to go out with anger
Going out tonight, now I'm going out mad
Repeating the intention to go out in a mad state
Staying in tonight, now I'm staying in sad
Repeating the choice to stay in with sadness
But slowly I'm glad that I am
Reaffirmation of finding gradual contentment
Going out tonight, now I'm going out tough
Repetition of the decision to go out with toughness
Staying in tonight, now I'm staying in love
Repetition of the choice to stay in with a focus on love
And I will erupt if I'm not on stuff
Reiteration of potential explosive emotions without substances
By ten past nine, I'm still in the line
Reference to the passing of time and continued waiting
But I am patient and I am kind
Expressing patience and kindness despite the situation
If I'm not around, then I'm still a cunt and if I'm asleep
Reiteration of self-awareness and acknowledgment of flaws
Lift yourself up off the banister, on campus and chill
Encouragement to rise above difficulties on campus
I stood there broken, choking all of the thoughts that I could still
Reflecting on a moment of brokenness and suppression of thoughts
And I think they went!
Uncertain recall of a previous statement
Well sleep is a mystery and the sun will explode
Reiteration of the mysteries of sleep and the future
I might be lonely, but at least right now I'm not on my own
Admitting loneliness but finding solace in the present
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