Lyrics
I don’t know how to say bye
I struggle with expressing farewell
Don’t know how I could get by
I don't know how to go on
Being without you I’d die
Being without you feels unbearable
I need to get high
I need emotional relief, possibly through substances
Tell me a lie
Tell me something false
Tell me that we can be happy alright
Assure me that we can find happiness
I think about time, I think about us
Contemplating our past and future
I think about how its so damn dangerous
Acknowledging the danger in our relationship
For you to be gone, effects on my heart
Your absence affects me deeply
Won’t be the first time it tears down apart
Previous heartbreaks make this familiar
I need to be clear, I need you to know
Expressing the need for clarity
I need you, I love you, I love you the most
Declaring love intensely
I’ll start to go crazy, I’ll start seeing ghosts
Fearing mental instability and hallucinations
Shadows of you in my bed, pictures of you in my head
Memories and reminders linger in intimate spaces
I look in the mirror but you’re there instead
Your presence haunts me
I took a chance with you and now I’d die for it
Took a risk in love, now facing consequences
Just to be with you, I’d walk miles for it
Willing to make sacrifices for love
Just too see your face I would kill for it
Expressing a willingness to do anything to see you
And now, you’re thinking of going away
Concern about your intention to leave
Sure it, seems like I would be in pain
Appearing strong despite potential pain
And I, show it like everyday
Expressing emotions openly
But deep down inside I know that you want it
Understanding your desires, conflicted about it
I can’t be the one to tell you to stop it
Unable to control or influence your decision
So I need to be clear, and I need you to know
Reiterating the need for clarity
The path that makes you happy is always the victor
Supporting your pursuit of happiness, even if it excludes me
Even when it means, I’m not in the picture
Acknowledging the possibility of being excluded
See I need you but I can’t hold you down
Dependent on you but understanding the need for freedom
Don’t know what I’ll be when you’re not around
Uncertain about personal identity without you
I find myself crying and I’m crying loud
Expressing intense emotional distress
Hands on my knees and my heads to the ground
Sinking into despair and hopelessness
I’m losing myself and my voice and my sound
Losing self-identity and voice
And it hurts to see what we built get taken down
Painful to witness the destruction of what was built
Now my heart’s stuck in a lost and found
Heart feels lost and abandoned
And its waiting to see if I’ll come around
Awaiting a revelation or change
And I fight for it
Willing to fight for the relationship
But I don’t know if I’ve got the life for it
Uncertain about having the strength for the fight
Cause without you its hard to maintain
Struggling to cope without you
Thoughts turn to feelings and feelings to pain
Thoughts intensify into painful emotions
Its got me in chains, I’m tied to the ground
Feeling confined and restrained
Losing the hope of you coming around
Losing hope of reconciliation
Imagining sounds, the words that you said
Imagining conversations and replaying messages
The message I sent you is still left on read
No response received, communication is one-sided
Our connection is dead, I don’t feel a thing
Emotional numbness despite waiting
Yet I’m still waiting to hear my phone ring
Hoping for communication, clinging to the past
Still wanting to hear the nice sound of your voice
Desire to hear your voice again
Telling me that I can still have a choice
Longing for a chance to make amends
We can still have it all back
Expressing a desire to rebuild what was lost
I can still love you like that
Declaring enduring love despite challenges
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