Lyrics
I've been trying to stay away from mirrors
I avoid looking at myself in mirrors.
Guess I'm way too scared to face my fears
Fear prevents me from confronting my own anxieties.
They ain't nothing scarier than the not
Nothing is scarier than not knowing yourself.
Knowing if you know yourself
The fear of not understanding one's own identity.
Speak my emotions I just hope it helps
I express my feelings, hoping it brings relief.
Sometimes I think about my life and search for the meaning
I reflect on my life, searching for its purpose.
Looking for temporary angels in permanent demons
Seeking temporary solace in the midst of enduring challenges.
Sometimes these people call me family just for their convenience
Some people claim family ties for their own convenience.
Take me for granted, while I'm here
Being taken for granted while I'm present.
Then they get hurt when I'm leaving
Others experience hurt when I distance myself.
Leaving all my reasons to kill in a box beside me
Leaving behind motivations to harm in a metaphorical box.
If you choose to open, embrace yourself. but don't try me
If you choose to explore, be prepared but don't challenge me.
Cause I don't wanna turn to that person that's so unlike me, but
I don't want to become someone unlike my true self, but...
Fuck with my family
Messing with my family triggers a strong reaction.
I guarantee, I won't take it lightly
I take offense seriously in such situations.
I might a little different now, it's different now
I've changed a bit, things are different now.
The love we had was toxic so we keep our distance now
The love we had was toxic, so we maintain distance.
We used to wanna ride for each other, die for each other
We used to be devoted to each other, but now we accuse and lie.
Now we point the fingers, say names and lie to each other
Pointing fingers and deception have replaced our loyalty.
So it's, fuck love and I'll numb the pain with this hennessy
Rejecting love and numbing pain with Hennessy (alcohol).
I hurt the people who always ended up forgiving me
I've hurt those who consistently forgave me.
All this money brought the faker people to me
Wealth attracted insincere people into my life.
And most the ones I truly love just haven't spoken to me
Those I genuinely love are distant and silent.
But as of lately
Recent experiences have shaped my perspective.
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