Kick Me
Rising from Despair: Pizza Pool Party's Journey through Turmoil
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By 29 I hope I find I
Expressing a hope to achieve certain goals or self-discovery by the age of 29.
Meet someone that's not in my mind
Desiring to meet someone who exists outside the confines of one's imagination.
Instead of laying on this bed
Choosing to avoid idleness and actively engaging with life instead of passively lying in bed.
Scrolling Tinder on the wi-fi
Engaging in online dating (Tinder) while connected to Wi-Fi.
Living in the highest end of low
Living in a state of contradiction, experiencing the best and worst simultaneously.
The world at my fingers with nowhere to go
Having access to opportunities and possibilities but feeling directionless.
Wasting away and counting the days
Passing time and feeling a sense of emptiness while anticipating a change.
Waiting for someone to call home
Longing for a connection or a place to belong.
I need to know now
Expressing a sense of urgency or impatience to understand something.
That maybe somehow
Hoping for a positive resolution or outcome.
That my life will not crash and burn
Fearing a dramatic failure or downfall in life.
And one day I will get my turn
Anticipating a future opportunity or positive change.
But here you come to kick me while I'm down
Feeling attacked or criticized when already facing difficulties.
To turn my forced smile into a frown
Experiencing the impact of external negativity on one's forced, insincere smile.
You push me further and further till I drown
Being pushed further into despair by external influences.
Than prance happily around this whole town
Observing others enjoy life despite personal struggles.
Finding a fix is only temporary
Recognizing that quick fixes or distractions are only temporary solutions.
Drinking just fills my head with something scary
Acknowledging the negative impact of alcohol on one's thoughts or mindset.
If I keep this up I will be buried
Fearing the consequences of continuing down a destructive path.
Alone and unmarried by next February
Expressing concern about ending up alone and unmarried in the near future.
I try and I try to hopelessly find
Struggling to find a sense of peace and contentment.
A little bit of some peace of mind
Attempting to find solace or tranquility but facing challenges in timing.
But my attempts are so ill-timed
Realizing that efforts to find peace are often met with indifference from others.
Wait you don't care so just nevermind
Recognizing the lack of interest from someone and dismissing the importance of sharing feelings.
But here you come to kick me while I'm down
Experiencing repeated negativity from others when already in a low state.
To turn my forced smile into a frown
Seeing external influences turn a forced smile into genuine sadness.
You push me further and further till I drown
Feeling pushed deeper into despair by external forces.
Than prance happily around this whole town
Observing others enjoy life despite personal struggles.
One day I will get over you
Expressing determination to overcome the impact of negativity.
And do the things I once loved to do
Anticipating a return to activities and interests that bring joy.
And after all that we have been threw
Reflecting on shared experiences and expressing resilience.
I'm coming back like brand new
Planning a comeback or renewal after facing challenges.
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