Lyrics
I'm so tired
I am exhausted and fatigued.
The hammer's coming down again
A challenging situation or hardship is approaching once again.
I'm hardwired
I am inherently programmed or conditioned.
All the signals cross and double back
Conflicting signals are causing confusion and uncertainty.
Broken inside
Emotionally damaged or shattered internally.
There's no fixing anything
There's no solution for the internal brokenness.
How do i explain
Difficulty in expressing or describing the situation.
I'm fighting every day to do the simple things
Struggling every day to accomplish basic tasks.
I've been pretending for so long
Pretending to be something I'm not for an extended period.
A record setting con
An unprecedented and deceptive act.
The smile that I always force
A forced smile that has become habitual.
Reactionary sport
Engaging in reactive behaviors as a coping mechanism.
I already work with less
Already working with minimal resources or support.
I can't give anymore
Unable to give more than what has already been given.
You want me to find some joy
Being asked to find joy in a challenging situation.
First find me the cure
Prioritize finding a solution before seeking happiness.
Blowing out the spark
Extinguishing a small spark of hope or positivity.
Isn't it delicious
Finding satisfaction in the negativity or difficulties.
To wallow in the dark
Enjoying the despair and isolation.
Disconnected from the things you know you miss
Feeling disconnected from things missed or valued.
Mend the ripping seam
Attempting to repair a torn or damaged connection.
Make it less messy
Trying to make the situation less chaotic or complicated.
Both feet on the beam
Struggling to maintain balance in a precarious situation.
I am wobbling so precariously
Feeling unstable and wavering dangerously.
I've been pretending for so long
Continuing to pretend, despite the prolonged duration.
A record setting con
Engaging in a deceitful and record-breaking act.
The smile that I always force
Forcing a smile as a habitual response.
Reactionary sport
Reacting to challenges as a way of coping.
I already work with less
Working with minimal resources or support.
I can't give anymore
Unable to give more than what has already been given.
You want me to find some joy
Being asked to find joy in a challenging situation.
First find me the cure
Prioritize finding a solution before seeking happiness.
Why do I continue to feel somewhat responsible
Questioning personal responsibility in a situation.
Why do I continue to feel somewhat responsible
Continued questioning of responsibility.
Why do I continue to feel somewhat responsible
Repeated questioning of personal responsibility.
Why do I continue to feel somewhat responsible
Ongoing sense of responsibility for the situation.
I've been pretending for so long
Continuing to pretend despite the prolonged duration.
A record setting con
Engaging in a deceitful and record-breaking act.
The smile that I always force
Forcing a smile as a habitual response.
Reactionary sport
Reacting to challenges as a way of coping.
I already work with less
Working with minimal resources or support.
I can't give anymore
Unable to give more than what has already been given.
You want me to find some joy
Being asked to find joy in a challenging situation.
First find me the cure
Prioritize finding a solution before seeking happiness.
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