Carry Me Home
Journey of Dualities: Carry Me Home by Polly Paulusma
Lyrics
Spin me round, I'm blindfold
Feeling disoriented or confused, as if being spun around with a blindfold.
Once upon a time somebody told me
Recalling a past moment when someone foresaw a successful future for the speaker.
I was going to be someone
Expressing the expectation that the speaker would achieve significance or success.
I was s'posed to be someone
Acknowledging the societal or personal pressure to fulfill a particular role or expectation.
Now one half likes to carry, wants to share
Conflict between the desire to support and share with others versus holding onto one's own light or essence.
I want to hold the candle
Expressing a desire to provide guidance or support, symbolized by holding a candle.
Load the gun for you, only load the gun for you
Commitment to protect or defend someone, even to the extent of using force if necessary.
But the other half yearns to be living that hard life
The internal struggle between a desire for a challenging or intense life and adherence to rules.
When I'm making breaking rules
Enjoying breaking rules and creating a path independently.
That are all on my own, so
Asserting independence by making personal rules and decisions.
blow winds and come rainclouds
Invocation for change or challenge, symbolized by the elements of wind and rainclouds.
Gather over my head
Symbolic representation of challenges or difficulties gathering above the speaker.
cracks keep gaping down me
Feeling emotionally exposed, with vulnerabilities or weaknesses becoming apparent.
Opening great halls of tug-of-war
Describing inner conflicts and struggles, like a tug-of-war within oneself.
Where no-one is the champion
Acknowledging that in the internal struggle, there is no clear winner or superior side.
So slice me down the middle
Metaphorically suggesting a division or separation within the speaker's identity.
Keep the half that wants to be
Choosing to retain the part of oneself that desires connection, loyalty, and support.
Your eyes, your arms to fight for you
Expressing a commitment to being the eyes and arms that fight for someone else.
'cause this other half needs to be living that hard life
Simultaneously expressing a need for a challenging or intense life for the other part of oneself.
Can you let me squeeze the trigger?
Asking for permission or acceptance to take drastic actions or make difficult decisions.
Can you give me the gun? oh!
Requesting the means to take control or responsibility for a challenging situation.
blow the winds and come you rainclouds
Repetition of the call for change or challenge, symbolized by wind and rainclouds.
Gather over my head
Reiteration of challenges or difficulties accumulating above the speaker.
if I win, are you man enough to claim me?
Pose of a challenging question about the partner's readiness to claim the speaker in success.
If I fail, will you carry me home?
Asking whether the partner will provide support and bring the speaker back if they fail.
blow winds and come you rainclouds
Repetition of the call for change or challenge, symbolized by wind and rainclouds.
Gather over my head;
Reiteration of challenges or difficulties accumulating above the speaker.
Blow winds and come rainclouds
Repetition of the call for change or challenge, symbolized by wind and rainclouds.
Gather over my head
Reiteration of challenges or difficulties accumulating above the speaker.
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