When I Left Your Waiting Room
Journey Through Emptiness: When I Left Your Waiting Room
Lyrics
Oh I tried for years to write you a song
Expressing a prolonged effort to create a song for someone.
But each time I'd try to write it
Difficulty in successfully composing the intended song.
It'd come out wrong
Frustration with the inability to convey feelings through music.
When I was younger I was so blind
Reflecting on past blindness or lack of understanding.
I couldn't read between the lines and instead I'd just cry
Previous emotional turmoil due to a lack of insight.
Instead I'd just cry
Repetition of emotional distress through crying.
Oh I used to look in the mirror and ask myself
Concerns about personal appearance and comparison to others.
Why I wasn't pretty like her
Insecurity regarding physical attractiveness.
And I was always somewhat empty inside
An ongoing sense of emptiness within oneself.
But even the empty feel more empty when they cry
Highlighting the heightened emptiness during moments of crying.
Oh I was so empty
Emphasizing a persistent feeling of emptiness.
Oh and if you would think to just tell me the truth
Desire for honesty, even if it causes emotional pain.
Hurt my feelings just once so I could get over you
Request for a truthful revelation to facilitate emotional healing.
I was everywhere, nothingness, falling apart
Describing a state of being scattered and disintegrating.
I was dumb as a rock, didn't know where to start
Expressing a lack of understanding and direction in the past.
Now I'm older, not wiser, but been through this more
Acknowledging aging without a significant increase in wisdom.
Don't know what I was thinking
Confusion or regret about past actions or decisions.
Don't know if I was thinking
Uncertainty about one's thought process in the past.
Oh you had me everywhere, you had me everywhere
Feeling deeply affected and influenced by someone.
You were here, you were there, but I was everywhere
Sense of being overwhelmed and lost despite the presence of the other person.
There's no need to say sorry
Rejecting the need for an apology.
It wasn't your fault
Asserting that the situation was a result of self-deception.
It's my own self delusion
Taking responsibility for personal illusions or false beliefs.
I just got caught
Admitting to being deceived due to personal misconceptions.
But when you were here, I was here
Describing a synchronized connection when both were present.
When you were there, I was there
Highlighting a parallel existence when physically separated.
When you were here, I was here
Repetition emphasizing the interdependence of presence.
When you were there, I was there
Reiteration of the connection during physical absence.
And leaving your waiting room was so hard for me
Expressing the difficulty of leaving a significant place or situation.
To let go and to tune into reality
Struggling to detach from a comforting but illusory state.
I couldn't tell you what was going through my head
Unable to articulate thoughts upon leaving the comforting environment.
But when I left your waiting room, I was half dead
Feeling emotionally drained or damaged after leaving the comforting environment.
I left your waiting room half dead
Reiteration of emotional depletion upon leaving.
I left your waiting room half dead
Repetition emphasizing the profound impact of leaving.
I left your waiting room half dead
Underlining the lasting impact of leaving the comforting environment.
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