Washout
Washout: Navigating Life's Depths, A Struggle for Glory
Lyrics
I didn't go out today
I chose not to go outside today
I won't go out tomorrow
I won't venture out tomorrow either
I'll just sit at home
I'll remain at home
And wallow in my sorrow
I will dwell in my sadness
Have you got some hope I can borrow
Seeking some optimism or support
I used to think so big
I used to have ambitious thoughts
I used to talk so bold
I used to express myself boldly
Am I giving up, am I getting old?
Questioning if I'm surrendering, growing old?
How'd I get so low?
Wondering how I reached such a low point
No I think life owes me more
Believing life owes me more
And I'm going to
Committing to
Pick myself up off the floor
Rising from a defeated state
'Cause I want the fucking glory
Aspiring for recognition and success
Wash out go wash out
Expressing the desire to cleanse and restart
I'm feeling I'm feeling like a motherfucking failure
Feeling like a complete failure
I wanna know how everyone survives
Curious about how others endure
The day jobs and debts
Navigating through regular work and debts
Not enough for rent and wounded sex
Insufficient for rent and unsatisfying relationships
What the fuck is next
Uncertain about what comes next
So hard to accept
Difficult to come to terms with
How do I get by
Struggling to survive
I've been bought and sold
Experienced being traded and used
Seen hot and cold
Encountered extremes of heat and cold
Been bored and ignored
Felt bored and neglected
Seen no reward for 10 years of my youth
No tangible rewards for a decade of youth
And the long line of bastards
Faced a series of difficult individuals
Waiting to see me pack it in
Anticipating others waiting for my failure
Now I know I'll never win
Realizing I may never succeed
Crawling under my skin,
Feeling a pervasive discomfort
Just amplify in my fuzzy fucked up mind
Intensifying within my confused and troubled mind
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