What If I Forget
Navigating the Abyss of Self: 'What If I Forget' by Rachel Siegel
Lyrics
I could swear I knew the words by heart
I used to know the lyrics perfectly
But now I don't know where they went
Now, I've lost track of them
If I'm honest that's a part of me
Being truthful, there's a part of myself
That I'm still trying to accept
That I'm struggling to embrace or acknowledge
Cause I never knew grace for falling down
I never experienced forgiveness for my mistakes
It was always all on me to figure out
It was always my responsibility to figure things out
And I don't know what happens if I can't
Uncertain about the consequences if I can't
What if I lose all of my mind
Concerns about losing control over my thoughts
What if it means I'm disqualified
Fear of being deemed unworthy or ineligible
What if my heart goes into debt
Concerns about emotional indebtedness
What if I give things I'll never get back
Fear of investing in things that won't be reciprocated
What if I can't remember the little of me left
Worry about forgetting essential aspects of myself
What if I, what if I, what if I
Repetition emphasizes the anxiety of "what if" scenarios
What if I forget
Expressing the fear of forgetting important things
What if I forget
Reiteration of the fear of forgetting
Truth be told it hurts like hell some days
Admitting that some days are emotionally painful
And my heart's doing the best it can
Despite the pain, the heart is doing its best
Working hard to say I handle things
Effort to convey that things are under control mentally
That I'm on track inside my head
Claiming to be on track internally
Cause I never knew grace for falling down
Reiteration of lacking forgiveness for personal failures
It was always all on me to figure out
Continued responsibility to solve personal challenges
And I don't know what happens if I can't
Uncertainty about consequences if unable to cope
What if I lose all of my mind
Concerns about losing control over thoughts (repeated)
What if it means I'm disqualified
Fear of being deemed unworthy or ineligible (repeated)
What if my heart goes into debt
Concerns about emotional indebtedness (repeated)
What if I give things I'll never get back
Fear of investing in things that won't be reciprocated (repeated)
What if I can't remember the little of me left
Worry about forgetting essential aspects of myself (repeated)
What if I, what if I, what if I
Repetition intensifies the anxiety of "what if" scenarios
What if I
Introducing a new perspective on the "what if" fears
What if I lose all of my mind
Recurrence of concerns about losing control over thoughts
What if it means I'm disqualified
Reiteration of the fear of being deemed unworthy
What if my heart goes into debt
Repetition of concerns about emotional indebtedness
What if I give things I'll never get back
Reiteration of the fear of investing in unrewarding things
What if I can't remember the little of me left
Repetition of worry about forgetting essential aspects of self
What if I, what if I, what if I
Intensified repetition of the anxiety of "what if" scenarios
What if I forget
Final expression of the fear of forgetting
What if I forget
Final reiteration of the fear of forgetting (conclusion)
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