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Still I don't have any friends
Expressing a lack of friends
Don't know when I'll trust again
Uncertain about when trust can be regained
Blame the world
Attributing blame to the world
And blame myself
Self-blame
Being me is in done in stealth (Yeah)
Living in a secretive manner as oneself
I'm so over all of it
Fed up with everything
Don't text don't call
Refusing communication via text or calls
I'm blocking it
Blocking incoming contact
Like why the hell you calling me
Questioning the reason for someone contacting after disowning
When you said you're disowning me
Recalling a disownment
You don't know my name now
Feeling unrecognized
I won't go the same route
Choosing a different path than before
You can call me drop out
Accepting being called a dropout
I'll still live my plans out
Determined to pursue personal plans
I think I need some paint
Desiring a change or alteration
To distort it just to taint
Wishing to distort memories
Make my memories a tank
Protecting memories from outside influence
No one touches less I say
Asserting control over personal boundaries
No one step out of your place
Enforcing others to stay within their limits
You decided you became
Deciding on a fixed state of affairs
This is how it all will stay
Accepting a stagnant situation
No one move
Imposing a halt on any movement
Nothing can change
Belief in an unchangeable circumstance
Still I wait
Waiting patiently
Until the day
Awaiting a specific day
I see my face and say
Desiring to acknowledge self-worth
I'm proud of you
Repeating the desire to be proud of oneself
I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
Expressing continuous hope for self-appreciation
The more I search
Increasing realization through searching
The more I think
Considering life as profoundly sorrowful
That life is really tragic
Feeling distant from desired goals
And farther down
Unable to achieve what's wanted
The rabbit hole
Suggesting a sense of hopelessness
I still don't get to have it
Being directionless but unafraid
I'm so lost
Feeling lost but not fearful
At least I'm not afraid
Questioning the cost of this state of being
But what's it cost
Linking emotional state to mental cost
I guess it's just my brain
Attributing emotions to the brain
And that's my soul
Valuing one's soul
So don't give it away
Advising against giving away one's essence
I can't be bold
Unable to be assertive but can achieve greatness
But I can still be great
Believing in the potential for greatness
Still I wait
Continuing the waiting process
Until the day
Anticipating a particular day
I see my face
Desiring self-recognition
And say
Aiming to acknowledge self-worth
I'm proud of you
Reiterating the desire to be proud of oneself
I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
-I'm proud of you
Concluding reaffirmation of being proud of oneself
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