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I put my heat n' my soul in my music
I invest my emotions and soul into my music
But it seems that nobody even cares to listen
Feels like no one pays attention or cares about my music
All this love shit is confusing
Confusion and difficulty with the concept of love
So I'm really sorry if I ever get distant
Apology for potential emotional distance due to confusion
I took many Ls I'm constantly losing
Experiencing numerous failures and continuous losses
I lost my heart so I think that I'm different
Lost my heart, feeling unique or different as a result
I gave my heart away to some fake love
Entrusted my heart to fake love, leading to betrayal
But in the end my trust they were using
Realization that trust was exploited in the end
Tired of ways, started turning away
Feeling exhausted, decided to change direction
Had to turn everyday, just to give it some hope
Maintaining hope by making a daily effort
Stabbing my back, they just drive on my back
Experiencing betrayal, urging others not to turn their back
Don't you ever turn back when you turn back that road
Warning against turning back on the road of progress
Got to attached to that feeling of love
Becoming overly attached to the feeling of love
I forgot I had feelings for anyone close to me
Forgetting feelings for those close due to mind games
Mind playing games, usually fake to me
Mind games often feel fake and deceptive
I overthink how I'ma grow
Contemplating personal growth and change
Cause I
Uncertain feelings about open-handed gestures
(I)
-Don't know how to feel about these open hands
-Where were y'all when I was down a year ago
Expressing disappointment in the absence of support
Blinded myself thinking y'all where my friends
Realization that assumed friendships were deceptive
I was so scared of the thought of me being alone
Fear of loneliness leading to self-alteration
I would change myself to try to fit it
Admitting fault in changing oneself to fit in
I know I was wrong
Acknowledgment of past mistakes
I try to be strong
Striving for strength despite enduring pain
I've been hurt for so long
Long-term emotional hurt
Music helps get shit off my mind
Music as a means of catharsis and release
Learn from mistakes it gave me a sign
Learning from mistakes as a guiding sign
Bouta burst with all these feelings I hide
Bottling up feelings but ultimately feeling okay
But in the end I guess that I'm fine
Acceptance and contentment despite inner struggles
I hate when people tell me that I need therapy
Dislike for suggestions of needing therapy
I don't need therapy
Rejecting the idea of therapy, preferring Hennessy
I just need Hennessy
Expressing the need for alcohol as a coping mechanism
Pour me a cup
Desire for a drink accompanied by soothing music
then put on my melody
-That is my remedy
-Help my insanity
-If I were to call out for some help
Doubtful about receiving help if reaching out
Who's really gon answer that phone
Independence and loneliness despite personal achievements
I did everything by myself
-That's why I feel so alone
Feeling alone due to self-reliance
I put my heat n' my soul in my music
Repetition of earlier themes and emotions
But it seems that nobody even cares to listen
-All this love shit is confusing
-So I'm really sorry if I ever get distant
-I took many Ls I'm constantly losing
-I lost my heart so I think that I'm different
-I gave my heart away to some fake love
-But in the end my trust they were using
-In the end, I think that I'm done
-In my head, I know I'm the one
-I think about it way to often
-On how I could be so dumb
-Now I'm cautious however I move
-I been through a lot god I've paid all my dues
-I sit n' ask the sky why he put me through all the pain that he put me through
-Stuck in the past, wishing I can go back
-But a lot of these racks, they help me with my goal
-I'm tired of hate n' I'm tired of love all this internet shit ain't helping my soul
-We been through a lot so I hope that he know I'm really willing to die for him
-If you my brother I'm ready battle I'm going to war n' I'm finna ride with him
-Cause I
-(I)
-Don't know how to feel about these open hands
-Where were y'all when I was down a year ago
-Blinded myself thinking y'all where my friends
-I was so scared of the thought of me being alone
-I would change myself to try to fit it
-I know I was wrong
-I try to be strong
-I've been hurt for so long
-Im gettin numb to the feelin of numb
-Traumatized so I'm clutching my drum
-I'm addicted to feeling the feeling of love
-Been in my mind I just need to run
-Paranoid so I stay with a gun
-I rather work then go out n' have fun
-I stay solo cause y'all gave me nun
-But y'all come around when you see that I won
-If I were to call out for some help
-Who's really gon answer that phone
-I did everything by myself
-That's why I feel so alone
-I put my heat n' my soul in my music
-But it seems that nobody even cares to listen
-All this love shit is confusing
-So I'm really sorry if I ever get distant
-I took many Ls I'm constantly losing
-I lost my heart so I think that I'm different
-I gave my heart away to some fake love
-But in the end my trust they were using
-(In the end my trust they was using)
-(In the end my trust they was using)
-(In the end my trust they was using)
-(In the end my trust they was using)
Reiteration of trust being exploited in the end
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