JO Bud
Navigating Love's Turmoil: JO Bud by Really Great
Lyrics
I don't wanna be your JO bud
I reject the idea of being your casual sexual partner.
I don't wanna be your bottom slut
I refuse to be treated as a submissive sexual partner.
I don't wanna look in the mirror
I don't want to confront my own image in the mirror.
And always feel like I'm not good enough
I constantly feel inadequate and not good enough.
But I don't really know what I can do
I'm uncertain about how to improve my situation.
When I'm always thinking about you
My thoughts are consistently occupied by you.
In some imaginary world where things work out
I daydream about a world where things between us work out.
I install all these apps, just as a test
I experiment with various apps, but they only worsen my mood.
But they end up making me depressed
Technology exacerbates my feelings of depression.
I just want to meet someone I like
I simply want to find someone I genuinely connect with.
I don't want to watch you get undressed
I'm uncomfortable with the idea of watching you undress.
But I don't really know what I can do
I'm unsure about how to change my current situation.
Clubs just aren't my thing and I cannot choose
Clubs and social scenes are not suitable for me, and I struggle to decide.
Between the vomiting and loneliness tonight
I face a difficult choice between unpleasant experiences.
And I don't think I can do this anymore
I reach a point where I can't endure this situation any longer.
This culture shakes me to my very core
This societal culture deeply unsettles me.
When you don't feel like you belong
I experience a sense of not fitting in.
And you've never been very strong
I have never been emotionally strong.
You think about how much it hurts
I reflect on the pain and hardship of my situation.
You really do believe you're cursed
I genuinely believe that I am cursed or doomed.
When you're alone again in bed
When I'm alone in bed again, loneliness and negative thoughts surface.
The thoughts that rush into your head
Distressing thoughts overwhelm me in bed.
You wish you didn't feel this way
I wish I could escape these painful emotions.
Is this just part of being gay
Questioning whether these struggles are an inherent part of being gay.
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