Lyrics
My first time being in the studio in like, over a year, man
Expressing a return to the studio after a long hiatus, indicating a challenging period.
I just, I have not been happy, I'm not gonna lie to you
Admitting a lack of happiness and acknowledging the difficulty of life.
This life shit is hard as fuck, bruh
Stating the toughness of life experiences.
And it's like
Expressing uncertainty and confusion about life.
I don't know man
Describing a lack of motivation and inspiration.
No motivation, no inspiration
Acknowledging the need to regain motivation.
You gotta try to get it back
Encouraging efforts to rediscover motivation.
I ain't been happy for a while, I'm just being honest
Honestly admitting a prolonged period of unhappiness.
To be 100, I'm still living cuz I promised
Highlighting the commitment to life despite challenges.
And every day I find it harder just to crack a smile
Expressing the increasing difficulty of finding joy.
But a lotta times I find some shit that makes it all worthwhile
Finding meaning and value in certain moments despite overall struggles.
Like when my niece laughs or when I hear a funny joke
Listing specific instances that make life worthwhile.
When my mom calls me every day and asks me, "how it go?"
Pointing out positive interactions with family and loved ones.
Or when people say they like my music, Imma make it one day
Finding motivation in the support and appreciation of others.
And when I'm with my girl, it feels like everything's okay
Seeking solace and contentment in a romantic relationship.
And when I'm in her arms, it feels like someone loves me
Expressing the emotional fulfillment derived from the romantic relationship.
I feel it in my soul every time she kiss and hug me
Describing a deep emotional connection and love.
I want her here forever, that's an understatement
Expressing a desire for a lasting and profound romantic relationship.
Cuz every time she touch me, man, it just makes me feel so lovely
Highlighting the positive impact of physical affection.
She's the only thing that inspires me now
Identifying a significant source of inspiration.
And even then, I can't think of nothing just to write down
Acknowledging challenges in translating inspiration into creative expression.
I used to use my pain, but now I feel worse
Reflecting on a shift from using pain for creativity to feeling worse.
And all this bad shit I'm going through, it starts to feel like I'm cursed
Expressing a sense of being cursed due to ongoing difficulties.
I don't even think made for this, just to be real
Questioning one's suitability for the challenges faced.
How can I be a rapper if I can't write how I feel
Expressing a creative struggle in writing true emotions.
How can I hold the mike if I can't pick up a pen
Highlighting the difficulty in expressing oneself through music.
Every day I consider the thought that maybe this should end
Contemplating the idea of ending the creative journey.
All the money, all the time, chalk it up as an L
Weighing the costs and benefits of the music career.
Take Red Arrow and the music, put that shit on the shelf
Considering putting music aside and assimilating into society.
And just blend into society and just try to survive
Reflecting on the distinction between merely existing and truly living.
But then I wouldn't be living, I'd just be alive
Recognizing the importance of actively living life.
I ain't been happy for a while, I'm just being honest
Reiterating the ongoing struggle with unhappiness.
To be 100, I'm still living cuz I promised
Reaffirming the commitment to life despite difficulties.
And every day I find it harder just to crack a smile
Expressing the increasing challenge of finding joy.
But a lotta times I find some shit that makes it all worthwhile
Finding significance in certain moments that make life worthwhile.
Like when my niece laughs or when I hear a funny joke
Repeating the instances that bring meaning to life.
When my mom calls me every day and asks me, "how it go?"
Emphasizing positive interactions with family and loved ones.
Or when people say they like my music, Imma make it one day
Finding motivation in the support and appreciation of others.
And when I'm with my girl, it feels like everything's okay
Seeking solace and contentment in a romantic relationship.
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