Materialistic
Navigating the Maze of Memories: Materialism and Emotional Resilience
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I look around for a picture of me, I don't see one
I search for a representation of myself in my surroundings but cannot find one.
I make a note of the shape of the room, it's pretty long
I take note of the dimensions of the room, which is notably long.
And I'm going through all the noises you put in my head that night
I reflect on the thoughts and noises from the night you influenced my mind.
It's enormous and wide, it would hurt too much this time around
The impact is significant and extensive, and going through it again would be too painful.
Push it back down
I try to suppress these emotions.
Archive the past with some shit that won't last you a lifetime
I store memories of the past using things that won't endure a lifetime.
Materialistic or are we acquisitive? Nevermind
Questioning if our focus is on material possessions or if we are driven by a desire to acquire, then dismissing the question.
And just when I thought there was no one still up, you're in my inbox
Just when I think everyone else is asleep, you contact me.
So I write you again, pause before I hit send, come unwound
I decide to write to you again, taking a moment before sending the message, feeling emotionally unraveled.
Push it back down
I attempt to suppress these emotions once more.
I look around for a picture of me, I don't see one
Reiteration of searching for a representation of oneself in the environment.
Something different I thought every time
Noticing something different each time I search, indicating a changing self-perception.
Maybe someday I'll turn into someone you can lean on
Hoping that, someday, I will become someone you can rely on for support.
Wasting your mind, you're just wasting your mind
Suggesting a sense of wasting mental energy or potential.
But all of our options just feel like a bottomless pit right now
Feeling overwhelmed by seemingly endless negative possibilities or choices.
And I'm getting sick of the big world you got in your head somehow
Becoming weary of the extensive world inside your mind.
So I try to forget how you lost me again, settle down
Trying to forget how you disappointed or hurt me once again, seeking calm.
Push it back down
Attempting to suppress these emotions yet again.
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