Once Open
Unveiling Emotional Turmoil: A Journey Through Betrayal and Healing
Lyrics
Once was open like a book
Once, I was open and transparent like a book.
My words were flowing out
I freely expressed my thoughts and emotions.
Now the birds are going 'round and 'round my head
Now, I feel confused and disoriented, represented by birds circling my head.
I was hoping I could look
I hoped to understand the situation.
To see what was going on
I wanted to comprehend what was happening.
Could I have been what was going wrong inside them?
Reflecting on whether I might have been the cause of the problems.
And I remember waiting after school
Recalling waiting after school to greet someone.
Just to say hi
Simple greetings without meaningful conversations on December afternoons.
On a December afternoon
No extended hellos or goodbyes.
No "hey" or no "bye"
Wondering if empty spaces were intended to create an uncomfortable atmosphere.
Were empty spaces meant to fill the room?
Questioning if numerous faces were meant to dampen the mood.
So many faces meant to kill the mood?
I was once open
Expressing vulnerability when I was once open.
They ripped out out my pages
Feeling violated as if my pages were ripped out, leaving me in stages of grief.
Left me in stages of grief
And I was once coping
Previously coping with difficulties, but now unable to distinguish between heaven and hell.
But now I can't tell heaven from hell
Uncertainty about my direction and destination.
So how do I know where I'm going?
Did it give you pleasure to leave me wondering
Questioning if the act of leaving caused pleasure or satisfaction.
If you'd ever get back?
Wondering if there was any intention to return.
Never once did it occur to you
Realizing the pain I felt on your behalf.
I hurt for you
I hurt for you
-Guide me through the land that I'm headed to
Seeking guidance through the unknown future.
I'm headed to
Will you take my hand?
Asking for support and assistance.
Guide me through the land that I'm headed to
I'm headed to
-I'm headed to
-I'm headed to
-I'm headed to
-Somewhere out there
Expressing a belief in the existence of a better place.
There's a place
A place that is evident and apparent.
That's staring at me in the face
A recognition of an extraordinary place.
Somewhere out there is amazing
Anticipation of a remarkable place far from disturbing noise.
Far from the noise that's in place
Expressing a need for love to understand inner pain.
I need your love to know what really hurts inside
Gratitude for the lessons learned, acknowledging their enduring impact.
Thank you for all your lessons
They will never die
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