I Used to Say I Love You
Unveiling Love's Deception: Robyn Hitchcock's Revelations
Lyrics
I used to say I love you;
I used to express love to you.
It wasn't really true.
It wasn't genuinely felt or sincere.
I wanted to believe it,
I wanted to believe in the love I spoke of.
And now I almost do.
Now, I am close to actually feeling it.
I used to say I love you;
I used to say I love you.
I said it as a threat,
I expressed it possibly as a threat or insincerely.
Or maybe as a promise
Or maybe I used it as a promise to test what I could gain.
To see what I could get.
To see your response.
But my heart doesn't break anymore.
My heart doesn't break anymore.
No, my heart doesn't ache anymore,
No more emotional pain.
'Cause it just couldn't take any more,
Because it couldn't endure any more.
And I've lost my illusions about you now.
I have lost my idealized view of you.
I used to say I love you;
I used to say I love you.
It wasn't what I meant.
It didn't convey my true feelings.
What I really meant was:
What I really meant was: Come into my life.
Come on in my tent.
Inviting you intimately.
But you were reluctant
You were hesitant despite my passion.
Although I was so hot.
Now I understand, but I didn't then.
Now I understand it,
But back then I did not.
Back then, I lacked understanding.
But my heart doesn't wear anymore.
My heart doesn't wear down emotionally.
No, my heart doesn't care anymore,
No more emotional burden.
'Cause my heart isn't there anymore,
Because my heart isn't invested anymore.
And I've lost my illusions about you now.
I have lost my idealized view of you.
And now if I should see you
If I encounter you now or call you,
Or call you on the phone,
I wonder who that person is,
I wonder who's that person
Someone I could never truly possess.
I could never call my own.
Reflecting on unfulfilled connections.
Although I kind of like you,
Though I have positive feelings for you,
I'll never understand
I'll never comprehend why I was so enthralled
Why I got so excited
Every time we held hands.
Each time that we held hands.
'Cause my heart doesn't feel anymore.
My heart doesn't feel emotionally connected anymore.
No, my heart doesn't wheel anymore,
No more emotional longing.
'Cause it just isn't real anymore,
Because it just isn't genuine anymore.
And I've lost my illusions about you now.
I have lost my idealized view of you.
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