Losing Everyone
Navigating Loss and Change: Rodger the Rover's Emotional Journey
Lyrics
8:49
Trekking through the pine trees at 8:49 in the morning
Traipsing the pines this early’s giving off the feeling
Walking among the pines creates a feeling
That you’re still here
Feeling as if the person is still present or lingering
Straddle the line
Being indecisive or uncertain
Walking in stride I hope good times
Hoping that positive times will accompany the journey
will follow me through here
Wishing for good times to continue with them
Oakfield and I
Having disagreements or differing views with Oakfield (a place)
We don’t quite agree on the golden days
Disagreement about the past golden days
You open the blinds
Opening curtains/windows to face familiar sadness
And who’s there to greet, but that familiar gray
Encountering a familiar feeling of gloom or sadness
I want things to stay the same
Desiring things to remain unchanged
When they ain’t
Realizing that things aren't as desired or expected
I’m scared
Feeling frightened or anxious
I never said I was prepared
Admitting lack of readiness for a distressing situation
For the sight of losing everyone
Experiencing the pain of losing everyone
And now anything nostalgic has faded
Feeling that nostalgic elements are disappearing
I’m scared
Experiencing fear or anxiety
And now I’m delving into despair
Entering a state of deep sadness or hopelessness
I swear to God I’m losing everyone
Expressing the fear of losing everyone
And now all the light I had has drawn vacant
Feeling a loss of all brightness or positivity
I don’t know why
Expressing confusion about a decision to move
Why I decided to move out of state after all
Wondering why the decision to move was made
But I’m still here
Despite the move, the person is still present emotionally
I miss you a lot
Expressing a strong sense of missing someone
Like it or not, I never knew how much I loved you
Realizing the depth of love only after losing someone
’til you weren’t here
Understanding the absence of someone they loved
So what’s there to make
Questioning how to handle all the changes, especially in New York
Of all of the change and the New York state?
Reflecting on the changes in New York
Roll cigarettes
Considering simple activities like rolling cigarettes
Or lay in the yard while I live sideways?
Contemplating whether to relax in an unconventional manner
Or pray for the times to change
Hoping for a change in circumstances through prayers
When they ain’t?
Realizing that desired changes aren't happening
I’m scared
Feeling frightened or anxious (reiterated)
I never said I was prepared
Admitting lack of readiness for a distressing situation (reiterated)
For the sight of losing everyone
Experiencing the pain of losing everyone (reiterated)
And now anything nostalgic has faded
Feeling that nostalgic elements are disappearing (reiterated)
I’m scared
Experiencing fear or anxiety (reiterated)
And now I’m delving into despair
Entering a state of deep sadness or hopelessness (reiterated)
I swear to God I’m losing everyone
Expressing the fear of losing everyone (reiterated)
And now all the light I had has drawn vacant
Feeling a loss of all brightness or positivity (reiterated)
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